How does one begin to say goodbye to someone they love
Someone they loves for centuries and received nothing in return
I know our hearts were drifting
But i never thought it would come to this
Standing miles apart
And looking at the same night sky
Do you remember the constellations I showed you years ago?
Do you remember when you said you would always love me?
Its strange now looking back on all those promises
We never thought the last time would be the last time
I never thought there would be a time when I couldn't hold your hand or kiss you
Yet here we are
You said I wasn't the right one for you anymore
Ans I suppose I shouldn't want to be with someone who doesn't want me anymore
But as I breathe in the stale night
I still want to be with you
I want to hold on to what was lost years ago
I want the lies to comfort me
I want you
You didn't even say goodbye
I guess I wasn't that important to you
But you were my north star in the darkest times
and now its pitch black
Without even a trail to follow

The emptiness that comes to me
Doesn't come when the sun shines
It comes when the night stars litter the sky
Where the darkest souls come out to play
That is when the desolation of my soul begins
Burning memories remind me of where I am
Lost in the past, while drowning in the future
What future could be placed on this obscure void
Glimmering moments of ecstasy slip through the holes
Seconds of bliss show what could be
To be content
Before the flood of hopelessness and despair return

I want to let go of everything
All of my stress and worries
Put them in a jar and let them go
Drop it into the ocean and watch it drift away
All the pain and struggles I endured
All the suffering and loneliness gone
But it always returns
Stronger and wiser
It feeds on my pain and discomfort
It leaves me with only one thing to do
Pick up the bottle
With its sharp and pointed ends
And let it cut the life out of me
Taking away the pain for the last time
The ocean tented with my story shines like crimson

I just want it to end
All the pain
And sorrow and agony
To lay down burden free
To slumber forever

She's looking at me and I can feel it everywhere
I can feel my hair standing on end
My stomach is swimming

She's touching my hand and I'm thinking
I'm thinking about how soft she is
And where her hands should be..

She's biting her lips as she looks at me
She wants me
And I want her
Because she's giving me the look

Time


Is the worst enemy to have

Time

kills
heals

**** time

I feel so lost
To far gone to feel pain
I'd give anything to feel something
Besides this nothingness
But my heart has stopped beating
The beating has stopped leaving me hollow and silent
Alone

I'm always alone
It's so quiet in my body
the ticking of my brained has slowed
All thoughts have escaped me
Except the thoughts of her
They are always there dancing

Dancing in my mind like the wind
She lives in my body
She moves through my veins
And pulls at my heart
She pulls at my shallow heart and shatters what's left
And leaves me with nothing
Nothing but memories
Memories of her