i am

i won't tell the moon
that i fell for you
because the wind will hear
and will tell the jealous sun about you

we're both running
from our haunting pasts
we both stayed
even though we knew it'll never last

this time together
let's try again
let's run away from everything
but with our hands intertwined

maybe it's true
that i'll never learn
and i'll never be free
from the mistakes i did, and will again be

i knew i'm doing it again
the subtle glances, the little gifts
i knew i was going to lead myself on
but stopped at nothing

now i'm here
with my heart on my hands
thinking whether i should
keep it or drown it

it'll never be enough, i know
the courage, the effort
cause i myself isn't
what more things i do

and now i'm running away
from her and myself
from my doubts and insecurities
finding comfort in words

i know, i know
i have seen it all coming
I've already made a script about it
but tore it as we started


i'm sorry, myself
for being so stubborn
and not listening
to my self-made precautions

but i'm sorry, so sorry
for not believing,
for not trying,
to be who i really am

Why did you touch me like that?
your hands soft, your hands with mine
touched me like you meant it
touched me like you knew

Why did you look at me like that?
your eyes never leaving mine
looked at me like you meant it
looked at me like you knew

Why did you smile at me like that?
your lips so plump, your smile so soft
smiled at me like you meant it
smiled ate me like you knew

Why are you braking my heart like that?
your laughter, so loud, my whimper, like a whisper
broke my heat like you meant it
broke my heart like you knew

touched me
looked at me
smiled at me
broke me

all so bad
yet so good

Don't tell me
That it's love
When you want to keep him
All to yourself

It's not the attention
That you need
It's him, and all of him
That you want

When you tell me
That it is love,
I know that you know
That it is not that

Keeping him for yourself
Not wanting to share his smile
Treating him like your own
But in reality, he's not

You tell me it's love
When in fact it's not
It's you looking for something
That is not what it is

Walk me
Like what you did to him
Be with me
At times when I need you

Walk me
Like what you did to him
But I'll be sure to be careful
Not to let you too close

Walk me
Like what you did to him
But don't walk into my heart
Like what you did to him