I carved my name into a desk.
I didn't think much of it then
But looking back at the mess
I can see the innocence

No walls to hold him
Just a desk to learn
And mark on a whim
To know I was here

And the lesson began

So they took my hands
Beat them with the edge of a rule

Hard enough to hurt but not bruise
To cut but not bleed

Just skin

So I looked down at my desk
And my name in pain
Trying not to cry
Tears tried in my eyes

My name is blurred
The table is blurred
Like a white washed wall at twilight.

In every heart there is a pane of glass
That separates the open from the closed
Where people come, from where no one goes
From where the sun shines to where nothing grows

Crack

From one side the light reflects
And we see ourselves like a mirror
But as the light and image grows clearer
We have to turn away for fear

Crack crack

We retreat behind the glass
Still we see beyond the pane
But no reflection remains
Only separation and pain

Crack crack crack

And the world becomes muddled
Words are barely heard
Everyone outside seems blurred
And it's quiet, yet stirred

Shattered

And everyone leaning against falls in
So we can fall out, and the glass cracks skin
And stains but at least there is no heart pane

Out of the wasteland others call paradise
I am a pilgrim journeying to death
With smooth hands and tired eyes
My sails are trimmed to breathe my last breath

Because home is beyond any shore my roaming can reach
A dream lost while adrift at sea
So I'll roam and dredge no more the depths I can't breach
I'll float across as my sails fly free

My heart is still where the white dove sails
Looking for rest at morning
Apart from will light's love prevails
Seeking a blessed mooring

There is something depraved
That cannot be saved
Deeply enslaves
Makes us cave
And crave
Graves

I find you reflected on the surface
The weather is warm bright and sweet
But sunk in the depths of the abyss
My heart's in a maelstrom beneath

And the water is crushingly cold
And dancing light mocks from the sky
But here in the shadows vice hold
I search but you're nowhere nearby.

I need you to step off the waves
To where no living thing can survive
Prove to me you can still save
I'll hold my breath til' you dive

Sunshine is a reminder
That light like love
Falls from above
Casts a shadow after it burns you