Know that you are stardust
Infinity resides within you
Of all the possibilities
You became you
Unique as the stars
The question of existence
Answered purely by existing
The quest of stardust
To become sentient
To become you

Can't escape your problems
But you can escape people
Sometimes you just gotta get away
You were toxic
I was being poisoned
By someone that came with a smile
Your lack of compassion is something to frown upon
No amount of distance or miles
Can right what you wronged
I never claimed to be perfect
But no one
No one deserves that
Today I know
That karma is real
You are alone
And it isn't a choice

Not gone
Not forgotten
Different
In love with a memory
The shell of the person
You once were
To see a person die
Yet keep on living
Is to know true pain
A tease of the happiness once had
To watch you exist
Knowing who you used to be
And to see what you've become
Completely familiar
But utterly different
When you walked away
There was no point in chasing you
You were already gone
Memories fade
And so will you

Being an intense person
Passionate about everything I love
Almost until it's too much to bear
Makes falling in love like flying too close to the sun

Sometimes I think
It's best
To just keep my feet on the ground for a little while
Some of us just weren't meant to fly

But flying was never really the problem
The hardest part about flying
Is the ground

Learning to land after a pummel
To fly again
Another day

Dancing is like life
When it's good
It's real good
It's amazing
Sometimes you dance alone
To the music of your own beat
No one else can hear it
You may look like a fool
And will be misunderstood
Sometimes others step on your toes
Or you're not feeling it
Sit this one out
Wait for your song to play
With the right partner
It's like living in a separate world
Shielded from the outside
Protected from the *******
Even time loses meaning
Dancing until the last song is over
It might not be the right time
Or the right song
Yet you keep on dancing
Until the music stops playing

One last embrace
As the world burns
A goodbye to yesterday
To welcome tomorrow
The end of a beginning
To sail upon a sea of possibilities
Watching the past
Breathe it's last
Accepting the future
Even though it's uncertain
Knowing that one foot forward
Is a step in the right direction
Bringing down the house
To build a city
Towards the horizon
The path I walk
Destination unknown
To harvest the seeds I've sown

The innocence in your eyes
Freedom in your laugh
Your smile makes me forget
The troubles
The pain
The sorrow
You feel like one of my oldest friends
Yet you're probably the youngest
I know we rock to the same beat
And when I'm with you
Our jam is always playing
Two old souls met again
On this plane of existence
Across time and space
Through the ages
Against colossal odds
Against societal norms
A connection that cannot be broken
Forever
Always
You, I love innocently

When I told you
That I loved you
I wasn't lying to you
I was lying to myself
Living the fantasy I wanted
Truth is
It wasn't real

10 pm Beer and Music
11 pm Liquor
12 am Dancing
1  am Beer, Liquor, and Dancing
2  am Bad dancing
3  am Arguing
4  am Crying
5  am Kissing and the rest
6  am Sleep
11 am Nooooo!!!!!

The morning comes
Bringing the warmth of the sun
Across my body
I feel it's heat
To my eyes
I'm reminded
To begin again
And live this life
Like there is no tomorrow

When the future is yours
And tomorrow is full
Life's pains and realities
Are still left untold

The intensity of happiness
Blinds us to the dangers
That tomorrow may never come

Our existence is but a flash
In the realm of eternity
But those you've touched
Will always remember

Not a day will go by
For the young or the old
You will never be forgotten
But always missed

As time rains over me,
It washes the pain away.

Grass stains
Growing pains
Tetherball
Kickball
New swear words
Detention

Girlfriends
Best friends
Pizza parties
Saying "No" to drugs
(Eventually saying "Yes")
Ketchup on the ceiling at lunch
Detention

Pencil stuck in the ceiling
Detention

Scraped knees
Snowball fights
Fist fights
Detention

Life's lessons
Early on
Dealing with bullies
Being a bully
Detention

Being stubborn
But growing up
Learning things the hard way

Detention

It was subtle
But I noticed
The way you lightly touched my lips
When you grabbed the cigarette out of my mouth
It was a small yet huge gesture
Not to be easily forgotten
Really
The whole experience seemed unreal
You were the pinch I needed
To realize I wasn't dreaming
Sometimes when good things happen
It's hard to believe it's true
Thanks for reminding me
It's not always a bad thing to be me
Especially since I met you

They have our backs
Drive us crazy
Judge us but love us
Sometimes
They are the most ****** up people
We will ever meet

People walk into
Sometimes run into
Our lives
Let them in
Or let them go

Family isn't like that though

Some of them are crazy
And you gotta love them
Some of them are *******
      Including myself, sometimes
And you gotta love them

In the end
They're still family

No matter how dark the night
The sun will come again

Out of the Darkness
Into the light
Overthrow the shadows
End of the blackest night

Once again hope
A genesis
Death of strife

The threshold of possibility
Finally recognized
Absence of the negative
Full potential of ability

Out of the darkness
Into the light
The dawn has won
A battle against blight

What you're asking me now
Is to go and forget
Act like it didn't happen

Don't be hurt
Don't be sad
Don't be heartbroken
Don't be mad

We tried but it didn't work
I can forgive
But wanting me to forget
Makes me ask
How?

Walk out of my life
Without a second glance
From the beginning
Was there ever really a chance?

You toyed with my heart
I was an experiment
It wasn't love for you
I was just convenience

So much beauty in the world
It's almost too much to handle sometimes

A lover's last embrace before parting ways
A warm sunset as the night comes
A campfire being familiar yet completely unique
Hearing the wind blow through the trees

It's always there and all around
Sometimes it's hidden
Waiting to be discovered

So much beauty in the world
Not lost
Wanting to be found

Beauty can trump anything
Fear and depression submit to defeat
A matter of perspective
For eyes that choose to see
So much beauty in the world
Open your mind and heart
A huge step in being truly free

Beware the beef capes
That ***** will fly away
Like the ***** villain
Just chillin'
That ***** I'm fillin'
But my soul she'll be killin'
One more
Or I'll be killin'
Can't escape it
Don't debate it
Just one more
Till she's mine

But no
These seeds I sow
As she chokes me out
I know better
But you know me the best
Tell me what I want to hear
To take the pain away
Tomorrow will come
Another day

Another way
Take my time
But don't take away
The passion I have today
The love and compassion
Runneth over from my heart
An end is a beginning
Not a finish
But a new start

Empty my heart
This impedance I give into

We can't escape our fate
But it's never too late
To reconciliate
And choose to love
Instead of hate

When burned
It's easy to judge
But no one is perfect
And life is too short to bear a grudge

I hide behind this bottle
Because I don't want to see you

I don't want to remember you

I don't want to think of you

I want to be happy
And forget

And yet when the morning comes
There you are
Like you never left

I hide behind this bottle
Because when I decide to finally stop hiding
You will have faded and so will the pain

Nine months of wanting to be somewhere else
A quest and yearning for home
A countdown of days
Waiting and waiting
Surviving and avoiding death
Every day that passes
A little bit closer to home
Knowing my son is growing in my absence
Wondering if I will see him again
Will he grow up like me?
Without a dad?

Finally home
But things don't feel the same
Like looking through a stained glass window
Familiar faces
Familiar places
But distorted and untrue
Home doesn't feel like home anymore
I feel out of place
And don't know what to do

People ask me if I'm fine
But I lie through a feigned smile
I realize I can't relate to anyone anymore
And especially
That they can't relate to me at all

I am alone
Surrounded by the people that love me

People thank me for my service
But I feel guilty for surviving
When others didn't

The sweetest revenge is to be happy without you.

You wanted a friend
But got a lover instead
The risk we take
Of losing it all

Anything worth having
Means taking a chance
Of looking like a fool
For just a moment to dance

Friends first
But now it's something more
If we are going to take that chance
Let's make it worth fighting for

As I watched you walk away
I knew things were about to change

We had passed the point of no return
And there was no fixing things this time

I thought about pleading with you
But kept my dignity instead

It would have been for naught anyways

Out the door you ran and left
I felt like a stranger in my own home

Sometimes I'm not sure
The battle between
Right and wrong,
What is best
It's confusing
And kills time

Debating
Baiting
Anticipating

Go with your heart
When there is ***** involved
Explain yourself

Life isn't fair
Those are the rules

You acted like
You wanted a piece of my heart
And I offered it up

For some reason
You took all of it
Even though I thought
It was locked away
And safe

Point is
I want it back
I deserve that

Where do you hide
When there's nowhere to go?
Who do you talk to
When no one wants to listen?
Surrounded by people
Yet feeling alone
Trying to be legit
Feels impossible sometimes
In a quick flash
Everything can be lost
Unforgiving is the life that waits
Karma doesn't always play fair
The pain and hurt attack the undeserving too
Sometimes the worst people make off with the best
What can be learned from that?
Patience and acceptance?
Of getting dealt the **** end of the stick?
A terrible hand in a high stakes game
Running out of gas when you're almost there
Looking for someone
But finding no one home?

Cracked
Broke
Wondering
If this is a sad joke
Never a final answer
Drinking to forget
But forgetting why I even drink
Too much trouble over nothing
Too much stress over nothing
Just looking for a little something
Between hate and love
A short link
Wondering
What it all means
Who has got your back
When you need it most
And not much is left
First world problems
Complaining and *******
About how everything is wrong
Sitting and waiting
For whatever comes along
Patience is a virtue
When it doesn't take that long
Pain doesn't cut you slack
Experience makes you pay
No discount
Still taxed
Revenge may be sweet
No point in paying that **** back

I had the best of times
I will never forget
You were the best
But
Wait
Wait
Wait

I forgot

Ever feel like
You missed the train
To the rest of your life?

Stuck at a station
Where you've already seen
All of the sights

Wanting to travel
Away from the old
On to something new

Destination unknown
Down the line
Headed to

Opportunity will sometime hide
Watching and waiting
For that second chance
To catch the train
And ride

A moment to consider
The possibilities

Look at how the trees breathe
Look at how the grass blows
Listen to how the winds call

Crickets chirping
Stars shooting
Dogs howling
Cats meowing

Beckoning to be observed
Just a moment is all it takes
To notice

I sat and wondered
About what was happening
All around me

The idea
That maybe it was all just a joke
I giggled to myself at the concept

Trying to grasp a trick
On such a cosmic scale

Oh the troubles!
What a difficult time
Between sleep and despair
What does one turn to?

A comptemplating cigarette
Or otherwise
To access a reality
A brief compromise

Without judging or pointing
At best
Trying to understand
Waiting to make some sense
This nonsense
Of a joke
That has no fans

Sometimes
Everything you say
Feels like a cliche
No new things to say
No new places to explore
How much worth
On what has been done before

It feels like small talk
Memorized and rehearsed
An endless curse
Over and over
Until the words
Don't even have any meaning
Saying nothing but screaming

The worst habit to have
Is not being yourself
Trying to fit
A cookie-cutter mold
Always doing what you're told
A forever quest to be
Accepted and respected

The world doesn't have any sympathy for you
Because your problems aren't unique

The only thing unique about you is
You

Writing with the wrong pen
Ruins things
This one has a ****** barcode on it
Why did I even buy this pen?

It flows smooth but bleeds through
That
I am not a fan of

A shot at my mark
To follow thru
And find true
Hidden behind frustration

It's shortcomings cannot change the words
But the original point of this poem was lost
In the poorly
And obviously hurried
Design of this ****** pen

The things you said
Whether true or not
Made me feel terrible
Shutting me out
Trying to talk to you
Heard but not understood
I too
Was not seeing what I saw
Trying to make it work with you
Was as productive
As banging my head on the wall
A combat veteran
Of a war wished not fought
Creating a family with you
Was something not bought
With money
Love
Patience
Or virtue
Our love was untrue

Insomnia
I'm not sure
Are we friends?
Or enemies?
I prefer the nighttime
It's quiet and peaceful
The calmness alone is beautiful
For that, Insomnia
I thank you
For all of the times I needed to be asleep however
But didn't even know where to begin
I struggle with you
Laying in bed
Wide awake
Bombarded with thoughts
To a point where my body is so exhausted
Yet my brain is running laps
It's a love-hate relationship I have with you Insomnia
Can I catch a break?