You

You told me you loved me by
Begging me to stop
Begging me to break up with him
Begging me to look after myself
Begging me not to **** myself
Three texts in ten minutes if I didn't reply
Begging me to reply
Watching Doctor Who with me
Getting drunk with me and letting me kiss you
But harassing me about it the next day.
Your I love you was implicit and beautiful
And all without the use of those startling words.

Him

He tells me he loves me by
Telling me not to stop
Putting his arm around me when someone looks at me funny
Kissing the back of my neck when my shoulders hurt
Telling me that he'd be devastated if I killed myself
Not texting me because I'll see him later anyway
Not minding if I don't reply because who cares?
Watching The Hobbit with me
Not drinking but kissing anyway
And kissing and kissing and kissing.
His I love you is explicit and beautiful
And a drunken confession burst on his lips.

You and Him*

Both of you
Tell me you miss me
Tell me you care about me
Tell me I can talk to you
Worry about me
Act evasive
Let me stay at yours when I'm upset
Sit up with me until we can fall asleep
Even when that time is 5am.
And yet somehow
I only believe him.

I'm going to keep
Pretending it doesn't hurt
When you don't reply.

How many more ways
Can I tell you I need you?
You just ignore it.

Oh, no, baby,
You're burning up
And speaking in lyrics again.
Darling, just kiss me,
I can make everything alright;
For a little while at least.
I miss you, baby,
Tell me what you need
And I won't hesitate.
Would you risk it all for me?
Any day, baby, any day.

I miss you already.
Is that stupid?
I just miss you so ******* much
And I'd take you back in a heartbeat
If you only told me that.

What hurts
Is that
You looked
Genuinely
Happy
To see
Me.

Please oh God I just want to hear your ringtone call me call me love me please oh God

Sun, moon, stars, night, day
End and beginning again.
Don't cease to love me.

Agony is when
You make me feel so wanted
Then go back to her.

And I said, “I’ll never love anyone.”
And he said, “What about me?”
And I said, “You’re the only exception.”

Here I am again
Alone in the dark.
Crying over how
Casually cruel you could be
When I only ******* loved you.

You only love me
When you are so off your face,
So drunk you can't see.

Look* at me. Dying,
Fire, bursting, crying, life,
Love, soul destroying.

The few times
I've seen you recently
(Thrice, I think)
I have had to lie to him
About it.

And it's hilarious,
Really,
Because you always said
I was **** at lying,
But I think that

It's just because
You
(Even today, when we don't talk)
Know me painfully well;
Better than anyone.

You and me;
Our souls are the same.
So we both know
When we lie
And I hate

That I don't think
Anyone will
Know me
So well
Again.

Hey
Remember that time
You told me,
"I don't know what I'd do
If you weren't around."

Hey
Remember that time
You told me,
"I wouldn't have made it through
Last year without you."

Hey
Remember that time
You told me,
"Please don't. Please don't.
Please don't **** yourself."

Because I do.
And now we don't talk.
And I listen to a playlist
That reminds me of you.
And I cry.

Seeing 4am is a habit
I thought had
Died
With you.

Seeing you again
And having you come up to me
And giving me a hug
Was a
Blast into the past
I didn't need.

It was
Feeling loved
All over again
And
Seeing you able to smile
At me
Made me feel
Less than nothing.
I mean
Nothing
To
You.

And there is nothing worse than that.

I want to cry.

Would someone
Please
Care to tell me
(And I'm being serious here, guys,
Because I really have no clue)
Why love
Has to hurt
So much?

Would someone
Please
Care to tell me
(And I'm being serious here, guys,
Because I really have no clue)
Why you can so easily
Act okay
Around me?

Would someone
Please
Care to tell me
(And I'm being serious here, guys,
Because I really have no clue)
Why you don't seem
To know who I am
Any more?

Would someone
Please
Care to tell me
(And I'm being serious here, guys,
Because I really have no clue)
Why you think it's okay to text me
When you need me
But not the other way around?

Would someone
Please
Care to tell me
(And I'm being serious here, guys,
Because I really have no clue)
Why love
Has to hurt
So much?

hi i know i'm not
hannah or alison but
i do still exist

I miss you I miss
You I miss you I miss you
I miss you I miss -

You are the best thing
About this place. You belong
Right here (in my arms).

You're awake and not
Talking to me. I love you.
I cry and love you.

It feels like
You reached into my chest
And at first, anyway,
Caressed my heart;
Boosted it;
And made it grow stronger.

And so I opened up to you;
Trusted you;
Fell for you.
Remember when you told me
That people can't help who they fall for?

Well I think
That those we fall for
Could help us not to fall for them
By being less kind-then-cruel.

Because now it feels like
You are still reaching into my heart,
But are clinging to it
As someone else tries to heal me;
And you are crushing it
Into tiny pieces
Slowly.
Oh, so slowly.
Is this really necessary?

Yes.
I do miss you.
And that,
Above all,
Is what I am
Most sorry
For.