I need an electric shock
like a thunderstorm
rolling down
breaking open
changing the air
leaving the earth new and fresh

I was as lonely as a moon on a starless night

i barely tasted freedom, still trying to find my own breath and you ask me to give it all up for him again

as i broke it off
i felt relief and
in months to come when
loneliness came knocking on my door

my hatred rose
people lost brain cells
I've lost smell
I've lost my patience
I've lost my friends
I've gained peace of mind without them

I dream of taking a dive in the sky as I lay upon grass staring at endless golden clouds
ah what I'd give to live up there in forever summer smelling the evening air
floating around with a bright clear blue ocean of nothingness

feeling like I was meant to be alone
not belonging
nowhere to actually turn
just me, lonely, even with a group of people around