have you ever thought who'd find your body if you died a lonely death?

I thought I didn't really care
just another thing happening in the world
while everyone stressed I felt numb
today everything caught up with me
making me physically sick
I'll be okay though

i feel like I'm stripping my soul
like I'm running around naked and for everyone to see
but in reality I've got on layers of clothing and I need the summer to finally come and set me free

feeling left out doesn't push me to get to know more people
it makes me push out the people I know and burn the bridges

my friends have better friends
my best friends have other bests
wonder if one day I'd mean as much to my friends as they mean to me

windows are flowing with rain
i feel it prickling my skin
sun burning holes into me
like the clouds weighing heavily
to drown in life
like the air living my lungs
the feeling of being crushed alive
i branch out of breath
living roots in my bed
the only safe place


help-
i've lost my head

not emotions
but my body freezing and falling asleep
once again I found out last
once again I feel left out
it doesn't even hurt
it doesn't bring me sadness
it just exist
and my body reacts to it
but my brain shuts down
my emotions turn off
it's like I'm away from my body as it's not feeling anything