I haven't felt
The way that I feel about you
In awhile

It makes me happy
And scared
And it fills me with
Hope
And
Eagerness.

And I love it.

So thank you

I am
Experiencing
This
Phenomena

Where I am ready and willing and
Safe

I feel the capacity
Within me
To move forward
To pursue
To advance

Simultaneously
I watch myself
Dream for tears to fall.

To feel
To express
To experience
The loss that has felt
Far too safe
In the pit
Of my stomach.

See my face,
But listen for the voice that begs to be
Set
Free.

Did you know
My love
That I am doing quite well?

Did you know
My love
That I am punishing myself?

Did you know
My love
That I am quite unwell?

Did you know
My love
That the sight of you
Causes me
To bleed?

Did you know?
My love?
Did you know?

This love for you
Is floating above me

No chance
Of me
Pulling it
Back
Down