"I'm fine."
"No, nothing is wrong."
"Yes, I'm happy."

Lies. Every single statement is a lie.

"No I'm not ok.
"Everything is wrong."
"No, I'm depressed.

If only I could say that out loud. But that would mean I would have to *trust them.* *And I'm sure as hell not doing that. They would only try to "help" and by help, I mean therapy, doctors, and maybe even my very own shrink! No. That is not going to happen because I'm happy. Right?

Today I told someone that I have dignity and self worth...I lied

"Go to the pool."
"Ride your bike for once."
"Go to the gym with your friends."
"Play in the park."
"You can't eat **** like that and expect to not gain any weight."
"Get off your **** and stop being lazy."
"Why can't you be more active?"
"You're such a ******."

Why do you always pick on me? I try to do those things but when you leave a list of chores that take 6 hours, its not like I can do much. All while I'm babysitting your children. I just wish I could be the "skinny" daughter that you want. I'm comfortable in my body until you say these things. Then when I start to feel better, you knock me down again.

Should I stop eating all together and finally give you,

**Skinny?