Deep inside you know
Everyone else can't see it
Possession of a monster in you
Repression is only one of its forms
Else you would of kicked its *** by now
Steals away your passion
Stalls your creative mind to a halt
Inside your heart you know
Only you can truly **** it
No one else should be bothered to know

Open me up as my pages are still being written

Tales of happiness and sorrow
Rises and falls
Love and loss
It is all give and take

But also, it is a tale that no one can copy even if it ends short of a happy ending

For this is my story
My life summerized in one book

I am me and no one else
I am strong and weak
I am courageous and afraid
I tell the truth and lie
After all I'm only human

But I am NOT only human
I am me and no one else

Now I know I like guys
I know I only have a relationship with one
But that doesn't stop me from feeling something
Something that a heterosexual shouldn't feel
I know I am a female both of my *** and my gender
And that's all I'll be seen and all I will be
But that doesn't stop me from feeling something
Something that a cis girl shouldn't feel
But if these are true and Who am I
Am I wrong of who I know I am?

1 2 3
That's all this to me
456
The number of times I try to go to sleep in one night
8 9 10
They say counting helps you fall asleep but just keeps me up
1 2 3
Let's try again

They see me as the woman that's in control
The leader
The couragous
The strong

But the leading also need to folloe
The couragous knows fear
The strong can fall to their knees

They see me as a woman that's in control
When really only my friends keep me in one piece

"Tis better to love and loss, than never to of loved at all"

But you cannot just sweep the flooding feelings of lonliness on your soul from trying to consume you

You cannot act as if you never cared for a person more than you have ever yourself

You cannot forget the butterfly kisses or true words filled with love directed towards you and them

Tis better to have loved and loss, then never to have loved at all?

No

that's why I'm afraid to be with you