What do you mean I was the ****** up one?

Please tell me you give a ****
It amuses me to see you try
I know that this is it
The truth is going to make you cry

If there was somewhere I'd rather be
It would be down 6 feet underneath
Do you understand that about me
I want to die in absolute peace

I had come back to try and find
The one person whom I thought would remember me
But it seems I am forgotten from her mind
I am a nobody with a low life you see
Hoping to find love that would help remind
That everything is ok and that's how it's supposed to be
I can't believe that I am not important
And that I am just a lost soul looking for a new place

Today is a new day correct?
Just like yesterday it seemed I had Tourette's
The next day I'll keep my mouth shut
So people can look at me with trust
Everyday it seems endless
The message is starting to send less
What will my inspiration be
How about Operation "Be Me"
Because everyday is a new day
It doesn't matter what you say

If only you knew, how much pain I have too

How are you going to live
Are you going to just survive
Go ahead and go hide
Don't worry about me, away you drive
Leave me in the wide tide
I'll just keep our memories in my archive
And wait until you arrive
To open them back up and give you life
So just tell me when you're going to contrive
Because I just don't know how you'll derive
When you live in lies