"are you okay?"
"yeah"*
if crying myself to sleep every night is okay
* if being too upset to eat is okay
* if being too emotionally drained to function is okay
* if being so upset I can't enjoy anything is okay

i have a good cry
over the lives
i did not get to live

I wrote a prayer just the other night
In it I asked for the gift of flight
That I may flee all this insecurity
It lies deep within so none can see
But when the night has come
My mind becomes undone
I wrote a prayer just the other day
In it I wrote all that I had to say
Lord I began and Lord I ended
Yet I left so many offended
“How dare I speak to someone not there!”
“How do I know that He can even care?”
They asked these questions repeatedly
Yet they never once considered me
The world pretends it wants the best
But soon you realize the parasitic pest
Drains you and steals the life in your veins
Yet we are able to break these chains
We turn our eyes to the Healer
We put our hope in our Leader
Yes! We have the power to say, do, and be
All that Christ intended for us on Calvary
So brothers and sisters, let us learn to love
And forget how to push and shove
Too often is a person broken down
By the thorns on Jesus’ crown

I am destroying myself so others can't
It's a twisted kind of control but it's the only kind I got

Hvis bedre,
er en mulighed,
er godt,
ikke **godt nok