Why do I always rise and fall?
If everything just stops like a wall
Then maybe i could have computed it all
My soul is dropping through the floor
I can’t be crazy – I hope I’m not
But if everything would stand still
May be i could have found how lost i feel

If I go now, what will I leave?
only short lived tears is what i can feel
If that’s the price to end the pain
Then for me it’s more than worth the gain

I’ve tried to go and nearly went
Only luck was all that i could have spent
Now sadness, anger, grows over me
The grief and shame is smothering

I never thought about getting so down
Never let myself to sink so low
And when we find our thoughts lost in our mind
We start faking what we don't know

Light in the window, pale and wan
All I know is that
A light like this is eve or dawn
I don’t know or can’t believe
This shows what I can’t stand to see

It’s been so long, I just don’t know
If there’s a way out of this abyss
What happiness would mean If it can't be seen
And mean for those who stands beside of me

The books and lessons try to explain
The reasons for fear, guilt and shame
It spells it out firm and clear
That’s only me just now and I’m still here

A door is placed in front of me
I don't know if I can pass it through
I trembled with fear, I’m scared to trip
In this life like ocean,
I don't know if I can swim

One by one we build it all
Then one mistake can make it fall
Do I feel one small change in me?
Angers depth is carving inside of me

Hold on to hope, no matter what its been
Fight hard to let light in
If it gets stronger, day by day
Then I’ll survive, not turn away?

Habits learned are buried deep
Have trained my mind
with my head tilting high
To take chance and try a different way
May be something will let the sun in my day

I was lying in bed,
Staring at the ceiling,
Feeling the sun,
And listening to the waves,
For a second, everything just like it used to be.
Snacks and beer and bad movies...

There’s no reason why things are this way
Cause they are meant to stay like the same way
Don’t know why we live this way
All I can say we do it everyday


Ministers on stage speaking about change
But all I can see beggars begging isn't it strange
From the mob web of life peoples trying to escape
Cursing someone’s name for the life what they face


The sky over my head in the world under my toes
Like the same way
Some things never change at all
Sometimes we try to keep it cool
The politicians lie but we ain't a fool
To walk by few miles we ain't need a cruise
Just like that no one’s need a blade or three piece suit
To argue the truth

Don’t know why I’m saying what I say,
But I’m saying it in my own way
There’s no reason why things are this way
Cause they are meant to stay like the same way
Don’t know why we live this way
All I can say we do it everyday

unless we turn things around
in your life
that might be true
And as always
people says what they say
we knew thats not true
and working hard
was the only solution we knew
to handle our all the problems
giving up is something we never did
changing the world for better
will not be easy but we will try
in the past being good and kind
is the dumbest thing i ever knew
it sounds like necessary
and in this cruel world it gets you *******
but it is still the way to go
a better option
than living only for money and power
which is a waste and we know
we actually succeeded
thinking that
our life was a failure.
which is absurd, the truth is
we are the humans at peak of our kind
and will do whatever it takes
to make this worth
and never let anyone say
our life is known for nothing.

He stand alone by the river
With his broken wings
Head bowed in shame
Tears carving its way through his face
Crying in the agony
With clothes tattered and knees scraped
Bruises and scars covering his visage
Blood splashing in water
In darken heaven
Seeing his own reflection
Soul wounded by rejection
Growing cold, sulking within
Drowning in river of own sin
No longer able to fly
Not completely
But losing his angelic side
Against his will
Unleashing his devil side
Blamed by fiend
Betrayed by loved ones
Who didn't even took time to know
In spite of being loyal
Destroyed and ignored
Now good person in him is lost
What you see a man in disguise
Is a devil
But remember that devil was once an angel

I'm writing down what i cannot see,

Wanna wake up in a dream,
where the sun shines like never before,
where life looks like a perfect world to live,
where the moon appears to be bigger for a spree,

overall as it seems to be heaven of dreams,
where Birds in the sky,
are collecting the scattered seeds of my mind,
that no one can find.

I'm ready to believe,
I'm ready to feel,
I'm ready to fall,
from the height to know about it all.

but I always wonder,
will i ever be able to seek
the luminous side
in the dark corner of my world.