Seems like a part of me will always have to lose
Every single time I have to choose
Swore that it felt right, but was I wrong?
Is this where I'm supposed to be at all?
I don't have the answers, not today
It's like nothing makes the questions go away
What I'd give to see if the grass was greener
On the other side of all I've had and lost
Would it be enough, or would I still be wondering?
If I could go back and change the past
Be a little braver than I had
And bet against the odds
Would I still be lost?
Even if I woke up in my dreams
Would there still be something I'm missing
If I had everything, would it mean anything
To me?
Feels like I might have broke the best thing that I had
I said too much to ever take it back
Scared I'll never find something as good
And would I even know it if I could?
From the other side of all I've had and lost
Would it be enough, or would I still be wondering?
(Or would I still be wondering, oh)
If I could go back and change the past
Be a little brave than I had
And bet against the odds
Would I still be lost?
Even if I woke up in my dreams
Would there still be something I'm missing
If I had everything, would it mean anything
Maybe I should turn around and take the other road
Or maybe I'm just looking for what I already know
I'm just wondering
If I could go back and change the past
Be a little brave than I had
And bet against the odds
Would I still be lost?
Even if I woke up in my dreams
Would there still be something I'm missing
If I had everything, would it mean anything
To me?
Would it be enough
Or would I still be wondering?

Fire and ice
both mean, both nice
hot left, cold right
Shoto won't bite

His Childhood hard
His soul and face scarred
from things new and old
he's done what he's told

His father abused him
and wanted to use him
His mother went crazy
and burned her own baby

He went to school
Where he was to rule
And made a new friend
TodoDeku to the end

Now he is happy
and not to get sappy
but life has good glow
for Todoroki Shoto

I wish everyday for the breeze of a Fall morning
The light chill that kisses goosebumps along my legs and arms
I wish for a golden leaf to fall into my hair as I walk along the pavement
For the sun to shine through the shy, soft clouds
I wish for a warm cup of cocoa on a November sunset
And the soft fuzz of my dog's tail brushing against my leg as she whimpers onto my hot skin
I wish to curl up beside the fireplace with a good book
And dream into the nothingness of tomorrow
I wish to blast the smell of lavender around me with the click of a lighter
And fall into the wonderful scents of the future
I will gaze out the window as I watch the leaves fall
As the smell of warm heat surrounds me
A book in my lap, my dog by my side
I will fall into a frenzy of chapped lips and soft blankets
Some people wish for a lover or a laptop
But all I want is the breeze of an Fall morning

I lay in bed alone at night and wonder why I'm here.
I do so much for everyone.
Why don't they show they care?
I met this girl who said she loved me,
something I haven't heard in so long.
She used me for my money;
what a ride she took me on.
There is so much hurt I feel, so much anger trapped inside.
Sometimes I wish my dad were here, but to me he's not alive.
I have no one to talk to.
These drugs seem to be the only way.
Turns out it's a lie just like the smile I put on each and every day.
I know outside I'm smiling; it's the face I fake for you,
But inside my soul is crying and there is nothing I can do.
I know my family loves me.
I'm there when their decisions are poor.
I'm sick of feeling like this walked on rug thrown upon the floor.
I lay in bed and wonder what the hell I'm doing here.
Can I wake up from this dream?
Can I please just disappear?

Will you end my pain?
Will you take my life?
Will you bleed me out?
Will you hang me out to dry?
Will you take my soul in the midnight rain?
While I'm falling apart
While I'm going insane

Can you break my bones?
Will you tear my skin?
Can you ******* lust?
Can you feel my sin?
See, I'm a waste of life, I should just **** myself
Yeah, I could slit my wrists, but it really wouldn't help
Wouldn't fix my issues, or change your mind
'Cause I broke your heart and you buried mine
Now, I'm six feet deep and I can't breathe
I got dirt in my eyes and blood on my sleeves
But I dig my way up through these roots and leaves
So I can get some air, so I can finally breathe
And now I'm on my knees, oh baby, begging please
Will you
Will you

Will you end my pain?
Will you take my life?
Will you bleed me out?
Will you hang me out to dry?
Will you take my soul in the midnight rain?
While I'm falling apart
While I'm going insane

Don't you miss me when I'm gone
'Cause you're the ******* reason that I'm not around
Don't you miss me when I'm, miss me when I'm gone
'Cause you're the ******* reason that I'm not around
******* reason that I'm not around
*****, you're the ******* reason that I'm not around

your a mystery,
that i can never understand.
you tell me you want to talk more,
then run off and ignore
you give me kisses and love,
then tell me that you dont want this
you want to stay single for a while
i get it
but what i dont understand is

A Smile Conceals The Tears Inside

Every day is the same old thing.
Seeing you with her makes my heart sting.
The way your eyes look at her with desire,
I feel as though my whole world is on fire.
I think it hurts so much to see,
Because that's how you used to look at me.
You told me you wished I could see how beautiful I am.
On those bad days where nothing makes me smile, you can.
You're funny and caring and sweet to me,
But lately it seems like it's only when you want to be.
Whenever she's around, acknowledging me comes to an end,
Even though you told me I'm your best friend.
I try to move on.
I want these feelings gone,
But when I'm with you I remember why
I love you because you're what I want in a guy.
I've never met anyone else like you.
Who sees the world the way I do?
Do you think your life would be better
If you thought maybe we were meant to be together?
But I don't think you will ever know,
So the time has come to let you go.
Some people just aren't meant to stay in our lives forever,
So I decided to write you this final letter.
I know that you will never reply
Because this is where I finally say goodbye.

The Promise
I love you.
Those three words didn't mean a thing.
I thought we were meant to be,
But I guess it was just a fling.
There's a wall around my heart, stopping me from crying,
But there's something inside of me
That feels like it's dying.
You were everything I needed, cared for.
I chose you, but now my heart is sore.
You will never realize that you were my best friend too,
But believe me when I say this,
I really did love you.

"Missing Him"
Day by day,
Miles apart,
I hold him close
In my heart.
My heart likes him here,
But my mind wants him to disappear.
So confused but so in love,
Looking at the stars above,
Remembering what we had,
And what could have been,
When we were in love,
And how we were friends.
He was like family to me,
I trusted him with all my heart,
But in a million pieces
He shattered it apart.
I only asked for one more chance,
Just to get it right,
But he turned me away,
And bid me good night.
Now these tears are here to stay,
Streaming down my face,
Wondering why he would turn me away,
And now we don't talk anymore.
That's so true,
So why am I still in love with you?

little johnny was a poor sad thing
his father was a prideful brute
when johnny slumped his shoulders
his father tied the golden wire around his arms
and held him up high
when johnny dropped his head
his father tied the wire the strands of johnny’s thinning hair
and held him up high
when johnny’s eyes filled with tears
his father glued his eyelids shut
when johnny frowned and shouted
shouted for help because he didn’t feel alright
his father stitched johnny’s mouth closed into a permanent smiled
but no matter what johnny’s father did,
johnny just didn’t have the will to live

the giggles of a child haunt me
fill up my lungs and throat with guilt
forcing me to choke as i watch her
i’d rather gouge out my eyes then see her sweet smile taunt me
she irritates me with her cluelessness
she’s young and stupid
when i warn her of the demons coming her way
she skips right through me
im unknown to her
but i know everything about her
i know all her thoughts
all her hobbies
i’ve thought every thought she has
i’ve played every game she has
i’ve sat in every classroom she has
i’ve prayed for the same wishes she has
i was fed the same lies she was
if only i could warn her
tell her i’m sorry
that i’m not what she imagined she would be when she gets older
if only i could have warned me

"Unbreakable"
Times like this, I wish I never existed
Nobody wants to listen
I'm screaming out for help
Times like this, I wish that I could let go
And open up a window, free to be myself
But then there's you
Standing over me, tryna make a fool of me
Tryna get the best of me
Oh, then there's you
Tryna shut me out, tryna kick me when I'm down
That ain't gonna stop me now, no
How does it feel to know that I don't care at all?
Your words don't mean a thing at all
I chose to rise, you chose to fall
How does it feel to know that I am capable?
Of more than you will ever know
Don't tell me I'm not good enough
Don't you bring me down
I'm moving up and you're over now
You gave me fire
Everytime you came around
My feet are steady on the ground
And you won't knock me down
No more, oho, oho,
Now I'm unbreakable
Oho, oho, oho,
Now I'm unbreakable
Times like this, I'm picking up the pieces
I'm making up the reasons
Not to tell a soul
Times like this, I'd rather speak to no one
I just wanna move on, stand up on my own
But then there's you
Standing over me, tryna make a fool of me
Tryna get the best of me
Oh, then there's you
Tryna shut me out, tryna kick me when I'm down
That ain't gonna stop me now, no
How does it feel to know that I don't care at all?
Your words don't mean a thing at all
I chose to rise, you chose to fall
How does it feel to know that I am capable?
Of more than you will ever know
Don't tell me I'm not good enough
Don't you bring me down
I'm moving up and you're over now
You gave me fire
Everytime you came around
My feet are steady on the ground
And you won't knock me down
No more, oho, oho,
Now I'm unbreakable
Oho, oho, oho,
Now I'm unbreakable
I remember getting tease as a kid
Cause at the place that we lived
We never had it easy, believe me
But that don't excuse the things that we did
Wouldn't accept that I was never accepted
Shed so many tears like I fell in depression
But if I changed, I wouldn't get called names
But it was all the same, I was feeling rejected
Putting someone down that's a low blow
What goes around comes around like a yoyo
Wish that I could stop time like a photo
But we stand strong, bounce back like a pogo
Don't tell me I'm not good enough
Don't you bring me down
I'm moving up and you're over now
You gave me fire
Everytime you came around
My feet are steady on the ground
And you won't knock me down
No more, oho, oho,
Now I'm unbreakable
Oho, oho, oho,
Now I'm unbreakable

Mental Health
I saw the the clinical medicine of my generation destroyed,
How I mourned the psychopathology.
Are you upset by how nonsubjective it is?
Does it tear you apart to see the psychopathology so objective?

Diagnoses, however hard they try,
Will always be various.
Never forget the assorted and versatile diagnoses.

When I think of schizophrenics, I see an ill thinking.
Do schizophrenics make you shiver?
do they?

Just like a maternal ligament, is the epilepsy.
Down, down, down into the darkness of the epilepsy,
Gently it goes - the smaller, the brief, the runty.

Don't belive that the mental is cerebral?
the mental is emotional beyond belief.
Are you upset by how gushy it is?
Does it tear you apart to see the mental so bathetic?

The alcoholism is not physical!
the alcoholism is exceptionally psychological.
Does the alcoholism make you shiver?
does it?