I can't help but feel like
a little fish
in an enormous ocean
whenever I see you.

I've never felt so alone.

I don't know why I run after people
who will never run after me.

I can finally chase after my own dreams
without you plaguing me with doubt.

My favorite days
are the ones where
the sky is gray and
the clouds are dark and low.
Where the wind blows cold
and allows us to feel.
Where the rain pours upon us
and washes away our past.
My favorite days
are the messiest.
The ones that match my heart.

There are so many people in my life who care about me.
People who would take bullets for me.
Fight for me.
People who will always be there.

So why do I feel so alone?

You told me I taught you
what it means to love.

What I didn't know is that
the love I taught you
would be given to
someone else.