A part of me loves you.
Loves to hold your hand and laugh at your jokes,
To hug you tight and never want to let go.
I miss you when you're gone
And hate when you leave,
A part that cries when you're sick
And is happy that you still breathe.
I want to say you know me,
My hobbies and my dreams.
I want to say I have a dad that truly loves me.

Then, there's a part of me that hates you.
Hates that you broke my heart and left me behind,
Never wiped my tears when I started to cry.
I pray that you forget me
And never want to come back,
A part that knows you've chosen your liquor over me
And hopes you have a heart attack.
I want to forget your face,
Your name, your number, and your life.
I want to forget I have a dad that has caused me so much strife.

These parts coexist inside me.
A never-ending battle inside my heart.
Hate can win or love can lose,
It depends on how my day starts.
So, patiently I'll wait for that inevitable call
That day your heart ceases to beat,
Until then there will always be
Two halves of a whole that make up me.

Nothing is better than The Rush.
No feeling in the world can compare to the high.
The smell of a powdery mountain overtakes my nose.
The tingle of a warm syrup slithers through my veins.
The inhale of smoke swarms into my lungs.
And the days slowly fade away.

Nothing is worse than The Crash.
When you can feel the euphoria dripping out of every crevice.
The stink of the sweat that rains down over my clammy skin.
The aches and shadows that encompass my sunken eyes.
The cramps that seize me and ******* my body.
Make me realize the I can't live without the high.

Life was easy before I met you
Before I could recall all your perfect imperfections with ease
Your messy hair
Your lanky arms
The depth of your eyes when you try to hide your sadness
Even as I write this, I see them in my mind
And my heart swells with pride

Love wasn't in my vocabulary before I fell in love with you
I never knew the sensation of a quickening heart when you are near me
I didn't realize I could babble so fast and incoherently until you said you loved me
How beautiful a smile can be when it's for you
How bright a soul can burn at the sound of you name
Since then, I know I'll never be the same

My heart never beat so fast until you broke it
My eyes never cried so many tears until you punched a hole in my chest
I never knew pain at a ten until that ungodly night
Yet, five years since the day we met, we still stand side by side
After the fights and the words and the rivers we've cried
We can still share 'I love you'
We can still dance through the night
Laugh and hold each other tight

I have never felt such deep emotions until I met you
And, as our lives progress, our love will stay true
So, my dear, I finally see
Exactly what you've done to me

The pristine crystals of ice
Glisten under the light of the moon
And the snap of crisp twigs underfoot
Startle those not immune.
The sparkling white,
A blanket of encased life,
Is a frigid treat
To these cold eyes.

You know you are in love when

You go out for a great meal and nothing
On the menu appeals more than
His/her lips...

You are kissing him/her and
A tiger comes up to lick your
Hand (tasting?) and you don't
Even notice...

The thought of him/her
Sends a thrill through your
Entire body...

When you are around your
Other friends they tease you for
Being a bore because all you
Talk about is him/her...

You see him/her across the street
And rush headlong into
Oncoming traffic...

The mustache on her lip
Only serves to make you want
To kiss her MORE!

You love to run your fingers
Through his hair...
Even though he has more
On his BACK than on
His head!

It's been 20 years and the above
Is still true!