Hello, how are you?
It's been a while.
I miss you. I really do.
I tried to reach out
but you never responded.
I hope I didn't
do anything wrong.
It hurts. A lot.
Whenever I tried
but you'd leave me on read.

I have so many things
to share with you.
I've grown and experienced
new things but couldn't tell you.
Cause it feels like
I'm speaking to a brick wall.
I feel dumb sometimes;
Getting excited and all
but you never respond.
I guess you need some space.

So if that's what
you need, I understand.
I'll give you that;
time and some space.
Know that I'm always here
if you need anyone.
You know I'm always happy
to have a reunion.
I just wish you could
tell me you're safe and sound.

-m.b

You held my hands
when I was fragile.
Told me legends
of how you saved lives,
like a Knight in shining
armor. You'll save me,
you said. Believing
every word, I gave in.

You held the keys,
stored between your lips.
Said it'll grant me wishes.
But stars turned into dusts,
skies painted over lies.
You promised me a forever
and I was mesmerized.
But you're a curse I thought
was a treasure.

-m.b

once you graduate high school
you see people for who they
really are

people change and
sometimes not for the better

your best friend is now your
worst enemy
the person who intimidated you
is now one of your friends
the boy you had a crush on
is now irrelevant

some people enter high school
with tons of friends
and leave with a few friends

others enter high school
with a few friends
and leave with none at all

- my high school experience

How do people bloom from being friends to lovers? How do they start off as strangers, get to know each other and then work their way into each other's hearts? I couldn't picture myself doing so. Being friends is all I can do. Nothing more than that. I feel like continuing further is like stepping into an unknown territory. Kind of like in video games. You know when you're not a gamer but you try to play a game for the first time? Getting to know your character, read the storyline but not knowing what happens next? Getting excited at exploring the new place and gaining points but after some time, you start to wander aimlessly. Not knowing what to do next. How do I break from this? What do people do to go to the next level? After the constant feeling of not knowing, you sort of give up and never pick up the controller anymore. That's what it feels like. To me, love, or rather, romantic relationship, is like trying to play a game you never played before.

-m.b

the only thing
that's left with
my burning
and unrequited love
are cinders capable
of flaming up again

i'm just waiting
for someone
to light it up again
but it surely
won't be you