i'm weak when i forget that everyone always leaves
and i have the nerve
the audacity
to chase after
a hot air balloon

it's a jumble of cliche words
designed to attract the attention of strangers
so that I can convince myself
that these things are real
that I am real
that the things I feel
don't just belong to empty space between my ears
that there's something out there
besides the backlash of my hurt
fantasies hurt less
please don't go

Ernest Hemingway said to write about what hurts.
But what do I do if it all hurts?
What are the words that capture the audience?
Probably nothing I can write
My tongue is dry,
signing off

your eyes are kissing me
but let's not romanticize pain

i gave you
more chances
than i gave myself
..
but it's my fault

i am losing your name
you walked away
and i stayed
digging myself
an early grave
a piece of my mind
was what i gave
it's now lost, just like your name

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