your warm, smooth touch lingered on my skin,
words dripping effortlessly from your lips
coursing slowly through my veins.
the sincerity you showed is still stuck in my mind,
crystallized
like sickeningly sweet amber.

but your touch turned gritty and bitter,
your words no longer flowing
but harsh and rasping, making sure
to cut me as i try to stomach them.
your tacky exterior enticed
the insects that bite and sting relentlessly and eventually
you replaced me.

you were like honey,
but now you’re just the faint memory
of sweetness on my tongue.

so this
                   is
it--
back   and
     forth so        effortlessly
words said so               clearly, taken
back           so quickly.
back to     pretending
that        
it's        not         hard
to read      between the lines
if           you       just           try
                          hard enough.
back to what I said before--
this
                  is
all
           there
is-- empty           spaces,  
meaningless
words.

Once upon a time
There lived an old man
Who held the world tight
In the palm of his hand

He took from the poor
He took from the rich
No matter to him
From which hand he fed

His hold was so tight
He couldn't let go
And wouldn't you know
It choked out his soul

All he did was take
From those who held a loose grip
Till the day came
When there was nothing left

In his blinding greed
He'd taken it all
And that was the day
He was left all alone

And alone he did die
In the town center he sits
Years now it has been
Never letting go of his grip

I shook the devil’s hand and looked him dead in the eye the night I put the barrel of a shotgun in between my lips
While I stood on the edge of a chair with a noose around my neck.
Killing two birds with one stone.
The feathers of the bird deep inside me would be ruffled after the bullet raced through them,
Shearing them apart like a combine moves through a field of corn.
The bird on the outside of my body would finally learn to fly after the bullet struck the inside of my mouth like a flashlight lights up a dark cave harboring a family of bats
And right before I fell limp to the floor, no longer able to hear my own heartbeat inside my ears,
The noose caught my fall, tightening around my neck.
The night I stood on a wooden chair, holding my own death within my hands in complete darkness around eleven because I wanted to be an owl instead of a raven,
The chirping inside of me wouldn’t quiet.
I heard the voices of wings outside the window in the tree I’d thought about soaring from; telling me to stop or cheering me on, I don’t know.
But if I would’ve put the single round inside the chamber of the gun or slipped the slightest bit from the chair,
I’d know how it feels to fly.

I thought I knew just what love was
But, I guess that I thought wrong
I never knew what love could be
Until you came along

I thought that I loved someone
But, it turned out to be lust
I found out I knew nothing
Until I learned to trust

You opened up my heart to love
You opened it to life
There's things that I'm still learning
From my lover, you, my wife

I thought that I had felt a love
Like no one else before
But, in the end I found that I was wrong
And that love is something more

I know what love is and it hurts
I just can not describe
I now know that I found love
It's a feeling deep inside

You opened up my heart to love
You opened it to life
There's things that I'm still learning
From my lover, you, my wife

Here's a little something to make you feel good
A little ditty to brighten your day
A poem to let you know that your not alone
Come what will...Come what may

Here's a little invite to the morning
Something in which to start up your day
If you could RSVP that we can expect your company
Then we'll be on our way

Here's a little tune that we can hum to
In perfect harmony
Finding what's right in life, setting all else aside
Will be the song we sing

Here's a little moment to make it all happen
The perfect amount of right in the frame of mind
We'll find what we're hoping for, life's open door
As we step inside

To share that little something to make us feel good
To help send us all along our way
This simple poem to let us know, we are not alone
On this day we will call today