calmed like a hibernating bear
every time you are near

slowly forget you
life without you
your stuff
your voice
your laugh
your eyes
your touch
almost all gone
almost forgotten
almost

always sticks to me
still hurts me
my tongue
my nose
my mind
my soul
my heart
never leaving
never be forgotten
never

always burns in me
still leaving scars
your fragrance
your flavor
your smell
your perfume
your scent
unforgettable fire
unforgettable glow
unforgettable

If God were a man, I'd understand why women are ...
so beautiful
so irresistible
so charming
so powerful
so lovely
so delicate
so tenderly
so ****
so hot ...

But they are so much more...
so emotional
so thoughtful
so confusing
so indescribably
so mysterious
so head twisting
so transformable
so incredible
so inconceivably
so surprising
so difficult
so irritating
so complicated...
and then they love shoes?!

No man could dream up something like this!

I want peace in my heart,
create black holes in dark memories.
Out of the holes crawling spiders,
they start to spin webs out of my thoughts,
my smallest defeats, my indifference.
In these sticky webs they catch my light,
swallow my energy, my time.
Gorge themselves big and bold.
Sometimes I can hear them smacking
or maybe they snickering?
I don't know.
I know.
Soon they will burst.
Their black, viscous blood will spread.
Everywhere in my mind.
The last little light will drown in this evil liquid.
I will turn again into this ******* zombie.
Controlled by darkness...