If our paths do cross
I hope it is
without my knowing

I hope you catch a glimpse
of my spirit as it was
before you broke it:

beautiful and entirely blind to you.

I hope I never see you
but that you see me;

In a moment of laughter, of joy,
in passing.

I hope that it stops you in your tracks but that you dare not stop me in mine.

I hope you are struck by the familiar flush
of red life flaring off my cheeks

I hope you fool yourself to thinking

I am the same as I once was.

I will never be yours.

As the sunset simmered
low and slow
a soft light rested
on the counter where I sat

I burnt my toast
while I was daydreaming
about kitchen ***
then the tea kettle screamed
because It couldn’t take the heat.
Understandable.

I poured the water in my cup and let the roses steep, left the burnt toast in the toaster and went back to bed

Just one ******* time
I’de like to feel something
without feeling everything.

Do not pause
for it is not in the spirit of love
to be still for so long.
Just as a river
does not stop in its tracks
for fear of overflow.
Just as the sea's are never still.

Just as the sea's are never still.

Words aren't insisting
to be enshrined in poems
I'm forgetting you

You made me feel like I had to earn your love.
Like I didn’t deserve your attention
Your age played a factor in my worth or my voice.
But I couldn’t go to you for advice.
I wish I could go back a little to face some of these truths,
With the freshness of memories I no longer have.