"Always become the one being hurt
Rather than ever hurting another"
Words I have strived to live by
The philosophy left by my mother

I've always tried to live my life
Standing up for what is right
Helping others no matter the cost
Being everyone's shining knight

What a horrible way to live

Even when I was on the verge of breaking
Even when the burden seemed too large
I always took it onto myself
And it was always free of charge

They all need to pay

But lately there is this voice
Echoing from the back of my mind
That is always fighting to take over
It wants to punish the unkind

Maybe I don't want to forgive

Tell me who is that inside me
Those thoughts can't be my own
Even when there's no one around
Somehow I am not alone

Just let me come out and play

I'm trying to keep it at bay
Am I past the point of no return?
I JUST WANT THE VOICE TO GO AWAY
But.... *Now....it's my turn

Good morning to the rising Sun
It's nice to see you again
For that means I'm still breathing
And made it to night's end

Hello to the resplendent moon
A light to shine in the void
My closest friend beyond my reach
Ends the day. I'm overjoyed

The Beginning and the End
To you I'd forever cling
Because there's nothing that I dread more
Than what happens in between

So lift me up, rising Sun
I do not wish to come back down
And raise me higher, resplendent Moon
To the stars all around

Please hold me fast with your loving glow
As I watch you each ascend
Although you both are lifeless
You spark life in me once again

I love life, I just hate mine
To live is a gift
That I can't feel
The hurt in me
Will never heal
I love life, I just hate mine
I'm now bloodless
Worthless
You left me useless
Lifeless

Lifeless.
A pretty face
Overtaken
By blue lips
Eyes
Clear as
The water she lie in
Now darker
Than the soul
That had now escaped
From her beautiful
Lifeless body