Months go by and it feels like a slideshow
Terrible nightmare that Sets a new low
I can’t escape it and all I truly want
Is to wake up and find you right beside me

a hug from you is so real
makes me feel as strong as steel
cats eyes staring at me
makes me feel free
„you were supposed to call me tonight”
I tell myself that as if everything was all right

When I was little
I was scared
Scared of the monsters living under my bed
I used to hide, under my blanket
Under my blanket, I was safe
The monsters couldn’t reach me under my blanket

My parents used to say
The monsters would go away
I would grow up and that then they would leave

But I grew up
And the monsters didn’t leave
Turns out my monsters, grew with me
Now instead of under my bed
The monsters live inside my head

So I hide, under my blanket
Where I think I am safe
Wondering if after all this time
My blanket can still keep the monsters at bay

A message
An email
A wave
A "hello"

And I get so happy

It doesn't have to be anything special
It's just so nice to be reminded
That you exist

What a strange constellation she makes,
sweet stellar body
that I view from
a safe distance
cause she would
burn me like the sun,
scorching me
with her radiant beauty,
as I study her astronomy
the anatomy
of cosmic glory.

you said I'll be your first and last

and you end up being my forever first,

and I'm never your last.