thank you for being here
thank you for being the only one who stayed when they left me
even though you ******* left too in the end
- l.w.

I was your bestfriend for five years
five years of my life I can never get back
you dropped me so easily
and the only communication we have had
is for you to vent about her
you miss her
you want her
I was nothing to you
and that is what I'm having a hard time with
because you were everything to me
and I ******* miss you so much
- l.w.

I want to text you
but the last time you did not respond
I want to go places with you and our old friends
but they and you hate me
I want to not feel this emptiness
you ******* swore you would never leave
I just want my friend back
what the hell happened
why did you do this to me
- l.w.

and I'm high on painkillers trying to erase the thought of you from my mind
*then you text me for the first time in months and it is all downhill from there

and it has almost been a month
since I have spoken to you
since we fought
and I am still not okay
but I never mattered to you
and you have moved on
and I am having the hardest time making peace with that
why have you ****** me up this much
- l .w .