thank you for being here
thank you for being the only one who stayed when they left me
even though you ******* left too in the end
- l.w.

I was your bestfriend for five years
five years of my life I can never get back
you dropped me so easily
and the only communication we have had
is for you to vent about her
you miss her
you want her
I was nothing to you
and that is what I'm having a hard time with
because you were everything to me
and I ******* miss you so much
- l.w.

I want to text you
but the last time you did not respond
I want to go places with you and our old friends
but they and you hate me
I want to not feel this emptiness
you ******* swore you would never leave
I just want my friend back
what the hell happened
why did you do this to me
- l.w.

and I'm high on painkillers trying to erase the thought of you from my mind
*then you text me for the first time in months and it is all downhill from there

and it has almost been a month
since I have spoken to you
since we fought
and I am still not okay
but I never mattered to you
and you have moved on
and I am having the hardest time making peace with that
why have you ****** me up this much
- l .w .

I cannot stand the sight of your face
for you saw me break
you watched me cry
yet you continued to lie
and I can never forgive you for that

- l.w.

and one day you won't hurt as much
one day you will no longer find yourself on your bathroom floor
at two a.m.
contemplating life
debating on swallowing the colored pills in your shaking hands
one day you will be happy
one day the silver scars will no longer line the inside of your wrists
one day you will no longer need that to cope
you will be a better person because of what you are experiencing
and although this sounds like the ******* that is said by everybody
it is true
this sadness that engulfs you is temporary
and one day you will make peace with your soul
- l.w.