"I sit here stitching myself back together
Wondering if this time too, it'll break
or finally last forever."

If there's anything that you should know
Is that I never really wanted to go
I would have used myself whole
To help you, that's the goal

Then there would be nothing left of me
So, I had to leave you see
There just wasn't enough for you
I ran out and didn't know what to do

To come up with more pieces
I made deals with Demons like car leases
To full fill your needs
Responding caringly to every plead

The cost was my happiness
That made me a mess
I never got a chance to be alone
Away from you or my phone

I buried every anger and every sadness
Which lead to my madness
You never paid no mind to me
I can do this can't you see!

I was left in the dust
You were steel and I was just the rust
You only know what what I spoke
Or that too I make a joke

You never asked about my heart
So that's why I left, because I fell apart.

You are as toxic as chemicals

But look at me

Still breathing you in like the cigarettes I smoke

I'd rather you hate me
and move on dear

Than love me
and be stuck, I fear

"I find myself happy and free
Oh how life can be
But why not with you and me
Is there something we didn't see"

"There's so much I have to say, but maybe another day"