At times I find myself blocked.
Stopped, unable to move forward.
Standing still, as the days pass me by.
Lost dreams, lost hopes.
Lost loves, lost friends,
Lost parents, siblings and children.
Lost heart, Lost soul.
Enter, exit, enter again and turn left
Or was it right?
May I go forward? Stop and await.
Do this! Don't do that!
They are wrong. We are right!
Over manipulated. Over controlled.
Enough!!!! No more!!!
Watching loved ones leave
Never to return again.
Longing throbbing pain.
So easily distracted by appetite
The smells and enticing words
"Massaman curry with rice with spring rolls
A slice of cheese, with date or olive
Lost in tasting, numb in feeling....
Eating myself into the land of oblivion
Drifting, floating, never to return.
It came quickly!
The rain fell hard in my summer!
Can you see us?
Everyone in their own storm.
Oh, please be still my restless soul.
Watching "them" drawing up schemes
Complaining maneuvers and attacks
Smiling smugly, together
under their "justified" umbrella.
I turned my energy away.
The wind continues to blow
And the rain continues to fall
Do I give into despair?
Or take courage to persevere?
Courage my friend.
A glorious choice, courage!
Moving gracefully through the storm
Calm stillness begins
Facing the sun
The shadows fell behind me.
"What if I grab the silver lining?
Will my life be forever changed?"
I am not a lone "Black Sheep" in this rain.
Each of us in line, shedding our fleece.
Letting it go, as white feathers
Gracefully floating higher
Upon sunbeams Home.
The storm continued as I built my new home.
Among the quiet of the fragrant cedars
Maples, birch and pine.
The fragrance of the wind
and the touch of the rain
Now fills my senses!
Spirit Dancing in the Rain!
My senses love the spring,
Summer and the fall rains!!
It was in this moment the clouds parted.
Revealing a flowing rainbow
With vibrational colors of resonance
A phi ratio within each color
Singing, songs, and connecting
Each strand of my human DNA.
A smile expressing itself
Thousands upon thousands of Colors!
An adventure within each
New sunny and rainy day!!
Oh, how I love, this sweetness in life!!!
Alienation: as I looked for the silver linings within each challenge, I began to transition and move through the countless births, deaths, and rebirths within my current life, as wisdom opens and begins to sprout each day.