Chill impedes my spine,
Mist clouds my mind,
Voices scream and cry,
“Why can't I just die?”
Hypo through my bones,
Obscurity bestows,
For this excuse
Is mine adieu.
Done with all, until…
A flash
Concise and clean.
Heaves me back
“Don’t leave them.”
My soul ousts a squeak
A silence stills,
“Escape the black”
For there’s always light
In the world of lack.

Engaged one evening,
The star blinds me.
Tiny pops in the sky,
My head pounds with each
Boom.
Goes the night he proposed,
Ice coats my feet.
What should I do?
Where should I go?
He's scaring me...
Boom. Boom.
Go the church bells.
Facing the doors
I move, but the hands
They push and pull.
Boom. Boom. Boom.
Sound the ball and chain.
Sat at my desk,
Let feelings flee.
Pen to paper.
Ring to ground.
BOOM! BOOM! BOOM!
The last sound,
of falling feet
and pounding hearts.
At last, liberating,
My 'happy ending'.

To whom I call
little sister,
venturing the yard
with noses red
and ***** feet.
I watch you grow
Up and up.  
High school comes
Our childhood goes
As we alight
a yellow wheeled-box
I watch a distance grow.
With each step you take,
Our memories flash by
A familiar smile
Confuses my mind.
To whom does this belong?
Not who stands before me,
Though I wish it had.
I miss our songs,
our laughs and our cries.
I miss our bond,
which was broken by man.
Oh how it hurts,
to mourn
the living.

At fifteen,
Home isn't home.
Crushing myself,
To be someone else.
It worked, so to say,
I've made it okay.
For life without you,
Is nothing,
At fifteen.