I begin to spiral downward with no
Safety net in sight or parachute on
My back. I look up and I see familiar
Faces of people who support me.
My family and friends become my
Ears and eyes, and guide me through
All the ups and downs and roundabouts.
They are my safety net and parachute.
“You can do it!”
“You’re amazing!”
That’s what they tell me every day
As my demons begin to slowly fade.
My demons fight harder and harder;
It’s David versus Goliath, an epic battle.
Good versus Evil, Heaven versus Hell.
My life is chaos and only time will tell.
“Don’t listen to them!”
“We control your life!”
My demons try to control my life and
They push me further into the dark abyss.
I’m free-falling, not the Tom Petty type,
Being ****** in like a black hole in my mind.
Welcome to the Twilight Zone as the light
Begins to fade in and out of my mind.
“Your life is precious!”
“You have so much potential!”
My life and my mind are not my demons’.
They will not control me, not if I can help it.
I realize that everything starts in my head.
I need to stop making excuses and listening to
My demons; they do not determine who I am,
Nor determine the person I will become.
“You can do it!”
“We have faith in you!”
“We believe in you!”
My family and friends break the darkness.
I see a hand as I fall deeper into the darkness.
Outstretched and Heavenly, I reach out for it.
Failing every time, I doubt myself and I begin to
Make excuses telling myself that I can’t do it.
I close my eyes and I tell myself,
“Stop making excuses!”
“You can do it!”
*“Just do it!”