IMAGINE
Just imagine loving someone just looking at them
observing their smallest gestures and acts
& getting excited like a kid
where you never found yourself like this before

laughing just because they are laughing
getting touched with their words which were actually so usual

sometimes being lover feeling proud
sometimes feeling like a mom who is proud of her child

finding the cuteness in their hotness
finding the vividness when everything was blur
finding the similarities knowing more as if like a serious PHD

and
and that smile when you watch their pic
where one day suddenly finding out that you can hear pictures
finding out that their name had became an emotion

and finally accepting the truth that
they actually don't even know your existence
but also accepting that this will be the love till eternity

neither wanna do something
nor wanna stay here still
then suddenly these tears shuts awaking all the past
uselessly where even knowing it is
still heart feeling those thorns

regretting the regret of wasting the now second
every time failing in a war facing being alone
can I get some strength to prove doing alone?
coz I know I can succeed when there is an helping hand

being low is ok until you get to know
that you are depressed
with depressed mind
suffering from so called depression
starting from there everything hits so differently
even the tears which fall down asks more for it's successors
tips of curvy smile's feels like thorns
hitting through tiring all the whole day
feeling the feel of being fake
hating the hate of loving yourself
still couldn't stop any!

when the first time I loved you
even unperfect things felt like perfect
it just went, not letting the hands go apart
but this is the only thing I couldn't realize

when the first time I loved you
the trust you gave was so mesmerizing
that I still miss that wore off newness
but this is the only thing I couldn't realize until it left

when the first time I loved you
the vibes that my heart gave
with those butterflies in my stomach
but the only thing I didn't even imagined
was this not being forever

why is it always me
who realizes the value after the moment leaves
"it was not the same"
but still stubborn heart says STAY
you are born for this
though time making it harder
destiny is cheering up to hold on that hand

things might not be the same
the beauty may starts to fade out
but instead of letting go
just hold those hand while finding the things concealed
there's no way that your soul was wrong in this case!

life: make me look smoother;)
me: huh! well...what about trying for more good memories and least regrets
life: yahhh!! Am done T_T

I didn't knew that you became my shadow.
when I ran away from you
seems like you were before me
where bright light of your love was felt behind

the shadow on me
when the happy light showered
& filled all over the room holding
during dark days
where I actually thought you weren't

I didn't knew that you became shadow of mine
protecting
holding
reforming
molding in the way now I'm
now!! let me promise
To be human version your shadow
that can never be left