thought i
almost lost you
i just need you around.

but, baby...
why are you so insecure?
we've been through this
so
many
times.
the same debate
over and over again.
I believe you when you tell me
so...
why can't you do the same?
I know you're tired.
I know you hate lies.
but darlin, I'm no ordinary person.
I promise I'm telling the truth when I say,
"you're so beautiful."
I just don't understand.
I wish you would believe me.

sometimes,
i'll taste myself
like you asked me to that night,
but a little slower.
i'll trail my fingers across my lips
and dig deep into my imagination
until i can almost feel you kissing me.

sometimes i do
things i normally
wouldn't
do and
pretend i'm with you.
sometimes i block out
those thoughts
that try to remind me
you're
not
here.