Julie Butler: Favorites

Mar 2015 Julie Butler

Olga Valerevna

i used to toy with memories like children play a game
and let myself believe i wouldn't make it through the day
the sun would tell me differently, the moon would have me speak
and everything I couldn't say would shut my mouth for me
i put too many yesterdays beneath a bitter tongue
i conjured up the heaviness of all that i had done
without a sense of rationale i'd put myself to bed
and crawl into the corners that existed in my head
they're not like i remembered and i must've grown too tall
i can't believe i ever thought i knew myself at all

i know when i don't know me

#me #know

Mar 2015 Julie Butler

of Nebuchadnezzar the king

Mar 2015 Julie Butler

Olga Valerevna

of Nebuchadnezzar the king

when people travel far and wide
Enough to make their way inside
a world that tries too hard to be
The definition of complete

I cannot help but find escape
In something not so far away
It's not above and not below
A place beside Abednego
The heat will burn but reassure
you came to be and always were
A passerby of life and death
And lungs that breathe the purest breath
There's nothing here for you and I
Except the time to say goodbye
And when the words prepare themselves
you'll need to look to no one else
your heart will be your head and soul
Derail the thought of human cold
The cover gone, the flesh undone
Recovery to Babylon

in the book of Daniel

#babylon

Mar 2015 Julie Butler

Been through

Mar 2015 Julie Butler

Olga Valerevna

Been through

Perhaps it was a night you don't remember
When your soul indiscreetly smothered mine
And there in the middle of the moment
I waited for the sun again to shine
I thought there was a purpose to the madness
The way my life began to rise and fall
But realizing day and night are lovers
I came to know the meaning of it all
I wasn't here to mend your broken spirit
I wasn't here to write you like a book
I must've thought I stumbled into shadows
For you to give me such a heavy look
But ours are not the eyes of the assassins'
we may destroy but we could never ****
I'm certain there is nothing left to wait for
We've seen it all but we are breathing still

with or without us

#through #been

Mar 2015 Julie Butler

Ink considerate

Mar 2015 Julie Butler

Olga Valerevna

Ink considerate

I don't want to ask the question anymore
It's not my place, I've let it go
And even though I've said too much already
I've found the strength to tell me no
It's not like I control a person's seasons
The winter comes and then it ends
But as the snow becomes the melted waters
In you forever I've a friend
It took this long for me to get here
A place I should have always been
I guess it's time to let you speak now
I guess it's time I let you in

sometimes you have to stop and listen

#it #consider

Mar 2015 Julie Butler

No Middle Name

Mar 2015 Julie Butler

Olga Valerevna

No Middle Name

where is my head amid all of this dirt
and why do I comprehend what it is worth
put me beside any matter or thought
And I will be able to learn how it's taught
Not that my knowledge goes deeper than yours
Only it differs the way it matures
I am your sister but I am not here
to make what your brethren believe disappear
constantly fighting the what and the why
I will not settle for rivers run dry
we are eternal and lest you forget
People are able to choose to regress
There is a beauty to all that we see
Broken and stripped down to what we perceive
Capable beings, we live yet we dare
to make those around us contrast and compare
But what if we juxtaposed only ourselves
Examined our hearts by the blood in our cells
I think we'd discover much more than a soul
a vision confirming we're not in control

what do you see when you look at the world?

#people #sister #brother #names

Mar 2015 Julie Butler

It is time

Mar 2015 Julie Butler

Olga Valerevna

It is time

Have some water, drink the calm
I have been here all along
At the edge of all you are
you may think you've gone too far
One more step is all it takes
Turn around and feel the shakes
Breathing heavy, thinking fast
you will find your way at last
Not because you couldn't then
But today begin again
It has everything to do
With the body you will lose
Settle in to something more
Something that you had before
You are here and Love is now
Like the rain it's coming down

two years of years

#thinking #breathing

Mar 2015 Julie Butler

amour-propre

Mar 2015 Julie Butler

Olga Valerevna

amour-propre

who is it that speaks to you when no one is around
when nothing in the world could ever satisfy a sound
it could be that a single word has lived inside of you
and hid itself from everything, protecting what is true
we pull ourselves together by ignoring who we are
and look at all the faces we have worn to get this far
but don't you know what happens when you see yourself again
your character remembers who you are when you pretend
it may have taken longer for your senses to respond
than you could e'rve imagined it, the thought of holding on
the only things that matter now be clarity and time
you're given just enough of both to put away your pride

love

#on #holding