i committed a sin
on the night of the eve
it was something
i swore i would
never forget.

i committed a sin
on the night of the eve
when everyone was happy
they were smiling
they were laughing.

i committed a sin
on the night of the eve
when husbands and wives
held hands
under the tree.

i committed a sin
on the night of the eve
do you remember,
past lover,
your anguished tears?

I learn more about the importance of guarding my heart every time I open it. I am far too naive and hopeful, I love too easily and I am too quick to believe things people say to me. I see the best in people and even though I allow myself to see people’s true colors, I become blind to how dark the shades get. I am the grand optimist, because I lay on the dirt in the dark where people leave me and all I can look at is the stars. I am tired of being used to fill a void, because I am whole. I am a full moon, and every man I encounter is my phase; slowly, piece by piece I disappear, until I enclose entirely into the shadows. Today is another new moon.