a night, one warm summer evening
strong lyrics, songs we listen to,
thinking about each other, not wanting to admit it

one touch, one kiss
a lots of alcohol, no judgment, candid talks
not wanting to change, afraid to loose it all

hard, dark, twisted life
pain and sorrow, kind smiles and honesty
fear, terror, panic attacks

us, in a little box, far away for life
warm and cozy, alone, safe
on one's own and cold, sad then tired

when night falls and the clouds blow in
thats when the ghosts appear

all of a sudden
all at once

they’re slow dancing in our favorite spot

but the wind is a cruel mistress
and blurs their once distinguishable figures

to nothing again

Here I sit

Alone

One waitress

Crying to a Queen song

She serves me coffee

I drink then leave

And on my napkin a coffee stain

What is me?

Close my eyes
and mouth with tape let me
hear the torment
within my head
without distraction
Always distracted
focus compromised by
emotional eyes
and an empty heart
sleep to destroy
the art of darkness
Slow step wake up
yesterday’s makeup
spilled on the tile
emotions run wild
like fenced in dogs
never touching their paws
to pavement
just chain link
filed teeth and angry
Arranging my next
movements in order
to save me
the door or
the window
cause you know
I’m not staying here
that’s very clear
no need for the drama
just call my mama
she’ll take me home
Mouth foams
dog bites
bigger dogs now attack
now I’m ******* my back
hands collapse under straps
And of course the beautiful syringe
tinged pale neurons singed
Bring me down the hall
this is what I call
home
Light fades sleep settles
and I’m not even through
day one

~kb

hey,
as much as i miss you,
and would like you back in life,
i appreciate living a life without you
more than living a life entirely waiting upon you.

the smell of love and regrets
the smell of you
on my lips

The moon is almost full
I am still on my first cigarette and I've got all night to use my brain
Right now let me just inhale and think with my heart