The pitter patter on the floor,
the warm welcome as you walk in.
This is your comfort,
this is man's best friend.

They bark at the door,
when any stranger comes near.
Letting you know,
"Master, someone's here!"

They listen to you cry,
when it seems no one else will.
They make you laugh,
and always give you a thrill.

A dog, a pet, but more than that,
it's a family memeber.
And when they're taken away,
they remain in your heart forever.

The sky fades to black,
the end of the day.
Another day without you,
one more time to say.

I love you,
and I miss you so.
Remember your promise,
that you will never go.

I stars twinkle,
they shine so bright.
As I pout in my room,
continuing this fight.

To win back the right,
for us to be friends.
To make sure,
the tears will end.

Because this fued,
it's pointless you see.
That we're forbidden,
to be together him and me.

A star flies across,
a night blue sky.
As I make a wish,
and begin to cry.

I wish real hard,
and hope with my heart.
It won't be much longer,
that we are apart.

The distance kills me,
but I know in m heart.
We see the same stars,
when we are apart.

And the night holds us,
keeps us together.
Like an umbrella,
from the stormy weather.

So hang on tight,
we're in for a ride.
But be sure to stay true,
keep me in mind.

I look up into the night,
whispering to the stars.
"Please remember,
I'm always in your heart..."

This is something moral,
something I believe.
I promise, I won't stop,
fighting 'till I acheieve.

You may call me,
some kind of drama queen.
But there's more to it,
you're not listening to me.

I have a reason behind,
there's truth in all I say.
I'm fighting for a good reason,
in each and every way.

The truth, the lies, the story,
everything I know.
Fighting for beliefs,
or for someone not to go.

For something maybe anything,
but I promise I won't quit.
And I won't put up with this,
none of your ****.

Because what I believe is true,
are my morals and they're mine.
I'll make them heard, I promise,
I'm a fighter, you're out of line.

You taunting, your laughter,
they all join in.
They smile, they sing,
the rejoice in your hymn.

They praise, they laugh,
they think it's alright.
But do they all know,
that little girl cries at night?

Your laughter, your words,
she thought you were her friends.
She's seeing your snickers,
she feels like the end.

It's stupid, it's pointless,
for you to poke fun.
At someone, unlike you,
she is the innocent one.

It's time to stop, to settle down,
her eyes are weak and weary.
Now honey, ask yourself,
is this really necessary?

For her to feel unwelcome,
as if her best friend betrayed.
This feeling goes on,
it lasts for days.

But we can stop it,
if we only listen close.
To a heart that beats,
and what matters most.

Cut from your mother,
for your own sick needs.
For someone else's pleasure,
and no else sees.

How sick this is,
it's cruel and wrong.
It's horrible, it's selfish,
and it has been all along.

On a woman, on a pig,
any animal of any kind.
Can't you see the sickness?
the cruelty behind ?

To rip the fetus from,
the flesh of it's mother.
It never took a breath,
never felt the weather.

It never saw day,
never tasted the air.
Tell what about this exactly,
is honestly fair?

I walk into a room,
and what a surprise.
I find you sitting,
just before my eyes.

Playing your music,
not soft and sweet.
But it's still enough,
to knock me off my feet.

I wave a gentle hello,
but then turn around.
I've lost the strength,
that once I'd found.

I race upstairs,
holding in tears.
And when I reach lonliness,
I left go of my fears.

I climb up in a window,
where I sat long ago.
And embrace emotions,
as they start to flow.

The tears keep falling,
and now I can't hide.
All the feelings for you,
I've kept inside.

When I sit next to you,
I want to lean towards.
Give you a kiss,
move a relationship forward.

I'm a mess, don't you know,
I don't know what to do.
Because, I'm an idiot,
and I think I'm in love with you...

I tell you I only take part of the blame,
but in my mind I take it all.
I act to them like I'm doing much better,
but all I can do lately is fall.

I wish you would look at me and see,
I wish you would understand.
I feel like it was ALL my fault...
I wish you would be the one to hold my hand...

You were always there when things were wrong,
when things got way too tough.
Even though I love you with all of my heart,
I'm afraid lately love is not enough.

I'm blaming myself for everything,
and I have since we began.
I'm screaming out to the world, darling,
won't you hold my hand?

I want to be able to walk away together,
from all the rubble and dust.
Leave this place and all of the ashes,
getting coffee together is a must.

I wish you knew, darling,
that I blame myself everyday.
And I wish I could change it all,
in every single way.

I wish you knew, sweetheart,
all I want is just one more chance.
For you to look me in the eyes,
to take and hold my hands.

To tell me it's not true,
my thoughts are merely lies.
It's not all my fault,
and you're coming to stay by my side.

I miss you like you wouldn't believe,
and I'm willing to start again.
Please say you'll give me the chance,
and be, again, my very best friend...<3

I'm walking down the street,
cars passing by.
As I think of the days,
the times you were mine.

Don't you realize,
how much I miss you ?
Wishing you were here with me,
in all that I do.

Maybe, just maybe,
I want you to talk to me.
Make an effort to be here,
don't you see?

I've fallen like a fool,
for you, my dear.
Oh darling, why can't you,
be around to gather my tears.

As I walk down the street,
in compelete darkess it seems.
I'm alone, I'm alone,
falling apart at the seams.

I'm spiraling into a world unknown,
unlike those before.
You say we're friends, but hunny,
I can't help wanting more.

There's a girl I know,
and from the outside looking in.
She's got it all,
a job, a family and friends.

Her eyes pop,
her body with curves.
Some days she feels,
like she's on top of the world.

But did you know she falls,
and when she's alone, she cries.
In such a great life,
there isn't happiness to find.

She has all she wanted,
but still feels she's missing.
Something very important,
and no one is listening.

She loses herself,
in music each day.
As she floats to a world,
oh so far away.

But she can't figure out,
just what it is that's gone.
And she doesn't quite know,
just what is wrong.

But as the music grasps her,
and the lyrics unfold.
She thinks of a place,
as she hides from the cold.

A place so far,
very far away.
You go and be gone,
just any random day.

And she wants to go,
to leave this place.
To meet new people,
learn a new face.

Maybe that's what she needs,
is to just get a way.
For a week or two,
more than just a day.

Because something is missing,
you can see it in her face.
She needs to find something,
to get out of this place...

Forever wasn't a lie,
it just all fell apart.
I tried to mend the scars,
left on your broke heart.

But you pushed me far,
and you pushed me away.
Wouldn't let me express,
words I needed to say.

Whenever I asked,
you would say "Not now".
I want this to be fixed,
some way, some how.

If you would only listen,
to the words I need to say.
If you would come with me,
after work some day.

Walk down by the water,
yell if we need to.
Get it all out together,
even if I hate you.

By the end we have said,
all that needs to be said.
Everything will be out in the open,
everything will be meant.

I'm just tired of playing games,
running on a rollercoaster of lies.
I don't want you to leave,
to say a final goodbye.

I told you I would take,
if friendship was all you had.
But one minute it was okay,
the next you were mad.

I want the whole truth,
no more stone cold lies.
I want our friendship adn honesty,
no more awful goodbyes.

Because this isn't right,
and you can't just leave.
We're in this together,
you and me.

You've always been there,
my very best friend.
I won't walk away,
this can not be the end.

So swollow our prides,
let's sit down and talk.
Face to face for once,
by the water on a dock.

The only way to solve,
all that has been done.
The only way to win,
a battle that isn't won.

It will never be fixed,
by just walking away.
Time heals all wounds?
Well honey, not today.

We need to hear,
words left unsaid.
The truth behind it all,
everything that was meant.

Every last truth,
no more lies.
Without pushing away,
no more goodbyes.

I walked away today,
so I would say the words.
That came to my mind,
because I knew that they would hurt.

I was told to stop,
to just let him go.
I'm with someone new now,
but just so you know.

I can be with someone,
who loves me very much.
But it doesn't make it stop,
can't you hear my heart crunch?

The man I'm with is wonderful,
in every single way.
He understands my feelings,
even if I say.

I still miss him,
and everything we were.
I still love him,
even if he's with her.

Even if I'm with that someone new,
that doesn't make it go away.
I left the game,
because there was so much to say.

If you actually want to hear,
trust me I won't hold back.
But I'm being accused of lieing,
and there's confidence I lack.

Can you please just try,
to sit down and listen to this.
To let me tell you all the reasons,
it's him I really miss.


He's with her, I get it,
but that doens't make it go away.
Can't tell you how many times,
I've wanted things to change.

But I still miss him,
and I can't tell my heart what to do.
Especially since there is,
that one underlying issue.

The one that will tie,
me to him forever.
When I'm with someone else,
and he is with her.

It makes my heart tremble,
every part of me ache.
I know I did things bad,
I know I've made mistakes.

But today I walked off,
I just walked away.
So I wouldn't regret saying,
everything I wanted to say...

She grew up too fast,
that tiny little girl.
Forced to mature,
in this cold, cruel world.

Sh never let you see,
no, she never let you know.
What she missed out on,
when she had to grow.

Now she's searching,
for a better life somewhere.
She wants tender love,
sweetness and care.

These people in life,
do nothing but shatter.
They rip her apart,
break her heart which is tattered.

There's a blue sky, she knows,
somewhere out there.
And someone who's gotta,
who just has to care.

She's gonna escape,
out past the horizon there.
Find what she's missing,
in that life out there.

There's a light in the end,
of the tunnel that's so long.
There's a break coming through,
in this depressing fog.

When your tower of cards,
falls to the ground.
Someone will start to rebuild,
everything lost is found.

When your heart is slowly turing,
to a deep and blackened hole.
When this life is not worth living,
hope is no more.

Just look for the end,
of the tunnel searching through.
I'm holding out my hands,
all I want is you.

I'm reaching up high,
to fix what was bent.
To apologize for words,
that were never truely meant.

I'm digging my way out,
of a thousand foot grave.
I'm picking myself up,
fixing the bed I made.

We're taking both the blame,
we're putting it all passed.
It's over and done with now,
sorrow's never meant to last.

Our battle is slowly ending,
we're coming out together.
We're starting to smile,
and dance in rainy weather.

I remember all the good times,
that we used to have.
Now we're getting that all back,
no longer we'll be mad.

We all make mistakes,
we all do stupid things.
But now it's time to fix,
to polish silver rings.

Time to make things shine,
repair our scarred hearts.
I'm sure we'll have more fights,
I miss you when we're apart.

But this friendship now,
will be stronger than before.
Our love honey,
it will be no more.

In the future maybe,
many years from now.
But we have a lot to do,
fixing things some how.

It's time we moved on,
but it's time we moved together.
I missed you on rainy days,
now let's dance through that weather.

I'm begining to see the light,
at the end of that tunnel.
I'm picking myself up,
from falling in a funnel.

We're walking out together,
we're working on just friends.
Forever still means forever,
we'll be friends untill the end.

Like Romeo and Juliet,
minus to suicide.
But we won't sneak around,
'cause we got nothin to hide.

Go ahead,
and take him away.
But where there's a will,
there's always a way.

I won't simmer down,
I won't stay calm.
Give me a reason,
I shouldn't drop an F bomb.

I've lost my friend,
of 10 long years.
Losing my mim,
fighting back tears.

Now you're taking,
my best friend too?
How would you feel,
if this was you.

Fighting for the right,
boy and girl friends.
Don't wanna give up,
there's never an end.

Standing up for what's real,
losing everything that matters.
Can't stop crying,
over my heart which is tattered.

Do you see what you do?
see what you've done.
In taking my best friend,
punishing for fun.

This is not alright,
never okay.
Not tomorrow,
not even today.

But go ahead,
and have you fun.
But it's not okay,
not even close ***.

I'll fight till the end,
who knows the outcome?
But I won't let this slip,
not after all we've done.

The late night calls,
crying on the phone.
Sitting on my bench,
never on my own.

He comforted me,
I was there for him.
But you think you can come,
you think you can win.

I won't give in,
won't let way.
Not tomorrow,
not even today.

This isn't fair,
this is life at it's worst.
I feel it's my fault,
this stupid angry curse.

Just when I get comfortable,
and I let down my guard.
Something comes along,
smooshing all my rewards.

I lose everything,
everything that's close.
I can't lose another,
not even a little ghost.

Now I softly cry,
and you will softly weep.
With nothing to hide,
no secrets to keep...

No matter what I say,
no matter what I do.
There will always be a piece of me,
hidden deep in you.

No matter who I'm with,
no matter what I say.
Seeing you with her,
kills me in every way.

If it makes you happy,
darling I understand.
But honey I still wish,
that you were my man.

That part of my heart,
that single piece you hold.
It's wearing very thin,
and it's getting very cold.

I want to see you happy,
and if this is what I takes.
I'll walk away from you,
until the earth shakes.

I'll keep walking when,
the skies come crashing down.
Keep smiling outside,
when inside I'm wearing a frown.

We both have significant others,
and only time will tell.
But I never forget,
just how hard I fell.

You can all call it a lie,
call it jealousy.
But as much as my heart's breaking,
as long as he's happy.

I'll go on living life,
even with my doubts.
There will be moments when,
I just want to sit and pout.

But life moves on without us,
so I won't stand still for long.
It won't be too long till,
everything is long gone.

Maybe there's silent satisfaction,
in the way you look at me.
Maybe I think of all the ways,
I'd like to look and be.

Maybe I'd like to be by your side,
and you to never leave.
Maybe I'd like to be alone,
and for now be just me.

Maybe I don't like the darkness,
and I won't dare go in.
Maybe I'll stand with you alone,
and defeat the darkness within.

Maybe all I need is someone,
to be with me always.
Maybe I need to have a someone,
to tell me always.

Maybe I need to be told,
you'll never be alone.
Maybe as long as you're with me,
I won't be on my own.

Maybe I like the look in your eyes,
how they turn bright green.
Maybe I look deep into them,
and I see a better me.

Maybe I like the feeling in your arms,
the deepest security there could be.
Maybe I like to kiss your lips,
and let those feelings overwhelm me.

Maybe I love the way you can see,
exactly how I feel.
Maybe I love the feeling you give,
when it's my heart you steal.

Maybe, just maybe, I need you,
To be by my side.
Maybe, just maybe, I wanna hear,
baby, you'll always be mine.

This is how a heart breaks,
this is how my soul aches.
With every step, with every beat,
I'm wishing you were close to me.

Baby you're so far away,
and I can't take another day.
I count your steps as you walk from me,
but in my heart you'll always be.

And when the sun sets below,
I just want you to know.
I miss you and I need you back,
and without you I'm outta whack.

So give me a hug and hold me close,
you're the one I need the most.
When you're not here I cry so much,
and I'm always longing for your warm touch.

Baby I need you by my side,
I need your help and I need your guide.
But when I'm crying, alone and sad,
I hear you voice telling me 'don't be mad'.

I hear you voice and feel your touch,
and I begin to miss you so much.
I'm looking forward to a time when we can be near,
to living a life with you minus the fear.

And I hear you tell me, 'Though we're apart,
No need to worry and this was never your fault.'
I hang onto your words everyday.
as I miss you in every way...

There's no time like the present,
no future in your past.
No telling what life might bring,
is this moment your last?

Life is not a promise,
it is merely a gift.
What you have no control of,
and things may suddenly shift.

The memories will stay forever,
the storms will pass.
As long as you live every moment,
as if it is your last.

Your eyes matched the sky,
bright and blue today.
This moment was just perfect,
in each and every way.

My mind is spinning,
in a hundred different ways.
I'm searching for all the words,
the right ones to say.

Your lips were on mine,
nothing could compare.
The way you looked at me,
your fingers in my hair.

My breath was stopping,
I felt I couldn't breathe.
All I knew was that,
I wanted you here with me.

Your hands upon my back,
running up and down.
I never wanted to go away,
never leave this town.

Your body so close,
feeling you against me.
This is everything I wanted,
everything we could be.

Your smile spreading wide,
across a familiar face.
I never wanted it to end,
didn't want to leave this place.

But I'm sure we'll back there,
I hope it's some time soon.
I silently sit and cry,
wishing upon a moon.

That feeling you gave me,
it was unlike any before.
You left me screaming at the stars,
baby, I want more.

You're everything I fell for,
way back when.
Everything I need now,
you're more than my good friend.

You've always had a place,
special in my heart.
Even when you left last year,
and we've been far apart.

I'll never forget the day,
I'll never forget this time.
The moments we spent together,
the moments you were mine.

The clouds, the sky,
the blue within.
My heart, my eyes,
looking for a friend.

The sun, the rays,
the warmth that lies beneath.
Her words, her thoughts,
have me talking through my teeth.

The grass, the grenery,
it's dieing this time of year.
My heart, my eyes,
have been nothing but sheding tears.

The water, the lake,
so calming in it's presence.
I'm asking, I'm begging,
for respect and nothing less.

The thunder, the lightening,
the calm before the storm.
It flashes, deep inside,
my heart which is torn.

The rain, the hail,
it pours over the ground.
I'm shaking, I'm breaking,
and there's no one around ...

You touch my softly,
and my heart melts.
You look at me that way,
it's better than all I've felt.

Your eyes, they sparkle,
your personality shines.
This love is ours,
this feeling is mine.

From the hair on your head,
to converse on your feet.
You make me smile,
and my heart beat.

The way you hold me,
you make me feel safe.
The past I've held,
you help me erase.

To live and let learn,
make the best of today.
I live in the moment,
I'm me in every way.

I can hear myself laugh,
and feel myself smile.
It's been so long,
it's been such a while.

Look at all you've done,
and you continue to do more.
When I am with you,
life is never a bore.

With you I feel safe,
and I can't help but smile.
I love being with you,
even for just a while.

Music fills the house as tears fill her eyes,
she can't take many more of all these g'byes.
Broken promises and millions of lies,
a kiss on the cheek and one final goodbye.
She's kept it all together and stayed full of will,
but honey she's just falling even farther down that hill.
Her mother's abuse and her friends cruel words,
with no one to confide and no where to turn.
She wears the scars like the bruises on her ego,
she can't remember when it started for it was so long ago.

Years from now with a husband and kids,
they'll be playing outside and see what she hid.
The scars on her wrists the pain in her eyes,
they'll ask where it came from who caused it and why.
With no answer she'll simply brush them off,
with a broken heart for lying and remembering...
why she tried but never forgot...

Have I ever mentioned,
that look in your eyes.
Makes me go crazy,
every single time.

You look at me,
you kiss my lips.
Your touch is warm,
upon my hips.

As you hold me close,
fitting like a piece.
Of the puzzle in your heart,
screaming defeat.

You've won me over,
my heart, my soul.
I'm falling, I'm falling,
I'm a spiraling fool.

But that's alright,
and I promise it's okay.
As long as I'm here with you,
yet another day.

As long as the sun shines,
warm on the earth.
As long as when you walk away,
my heart hurts.

So long as these feelings,
they never go away.
So long as you're here,
forever and always.

New job, new boy, new year,
this is what it's about.
New life, new start, new begining,
I'm begining to mend my heart.

I'm leaving it all behind,
that life is in the dust.
I'm trying to mend my heart,
for that, this is a must.

The friends, the love, the life,
it's all becoming new.
The happiness, smiles, the grace,
I'm finding in someone who.

Gives a **** about me,
my hurt and struggles and fears.
Let's me know I'm beautiful,
and tries to dry my tears.

I'm mending all the wrong,
I'm making it all right.
I'm looking out for me now,
I'm officially ending this fight.

I don't care where it started,
but now I believe is the end.
Time to look at all the tattered,
broken and dirtied loose ends.

I'm starting a new job,
getting away from him.
Started a new school year,
doing well in my classes again.

**This is time for resolution,
this is the time for new.
I'm focusing on me this year,
this is a year without you.

The simple touch,
you arms on me.
A place like this,
I want to forever be.

We talked, we listened,
to each other's life story.
This new friendship,
unlike any before thee.

Your smile and dimples,
spread across your face.
You laughter and jokes,
make me never want to leave this place.

You walked me home,
straight to the door.
You held me close,
unlike before.

You leaned in close,
kissed my lips.
Your touch passionate,
hands on my hips.

"I just wanted to know,
what it would be like."
You told me as,
we ended the night.

I stood astonished,
as you left the scene.
Me emotions ran wild,
inside of me.

My eyes opened up,
I rolled over in bed.
Those last 4 stanzas,
were just in my head.

But all before that,
that lies in my heart.
When we're close together,
or farther apart.

And there's no other feeling,
like when you hold me tight.
My dear, that touch,
can get me through the night.

Your smile, your eyes,
our laughter and tears.
With you by my side,
I have no more fears...

I'm not afraid,
to stand up this far.
I'm scared to fall,
and be forever scarred.

I'm not afraid,
to walk alone.
But to be forever,
on my very own.

I'm not afraid,
to be in dark,
I'm scared of what,
may lurk in that dark.

I'm not afraid,
to sing aloud.
I'm scared I'll be told,
shut up right now.

I'm not afraid,
to show my poetry.
I'm scared I'll be told,
writing's not for me.

I'm not afraid,
to let trust in.
I'm scared it'll be broken,
and proven wrong again.

I'm not afraid,
of death to come.
I'm scared I won't accomplish.
what I want to get done.

I'm not afraid to love,
and let my heart soar.
I'm scared he won't want to,
and I'll be left unsure.

I'm not afraid to love,
I'm scared to be broken.
To let love in is an invitation,
for the heart to slowly blacken.

I'm not afraid to love,
or to let him in.
Because I trust his heart,
and that's a good place to begin.

I trust he'll hold me high,
but he won't let me fall.
And he'll be by my side,
each time I call.

I trust he'll stand by me,
when I'm in the darkness.
To fight off all evil,
and help clean my mess.

I trust he'll listen,
if I ask him to.
To my singing or poetry,
and whatever else I do.

I trust he'll love me,
unconditionally forever.
And I can put my fears to rest,
and let him mend the weather...

I'm not afraid to stand up this far,
I'm scared to fall and be forever scarred.
I'm not afraid to walk now alone,
But to be forever on my very own.  

I'm not afraid to sing aloud,
I'm scared I'll be told shut up right now.
I'm not afraid to let trust in,
I'm scared it'll be broken and proven wrong again.  

I'm not afraid of death to come,
I'm scared I won't accomplish what I want to get done.
I'm not afraid to love and let my heart soar,
I'm scared he won't want to and I'll be left unsure.  

I'm not afraid to love I'm scared to be broken,
To let love in is an invitation for the heart to slowly blacken.
I'm not afraid to love or to let him in,
Because I trust his heart and that's a good place to begin.

Clothes, Smiles, Frowns,
One Girl

Change, Grow Up, Maturity,
One Year

Friends, Work, School,
One Life

Home, House, Venting,
One Understanding

Mom, Uncle, Aunt,
One Family

Promises, Love, Laughs,
One Boyfriend

Lies, Goodbyes, Hurt,
*One Hundred Tears

I’m looking in a mirror,
and this face I see,
Tall with dark features,
at the age of sixteen.

At the age of sixteen,
I have seen the world.
The people, the faces,
the boys and girls.

At the age of sixteen,
I haven’t been far from home.
But I’ve made some friends,
and I’m not alone.

At the age of sixteen,
I’m aware what’s right.
What’s wrong in this world,
the hate and the strife.

But at the age of sixteen,
what confuses me still.
Is how you have children,
on your own free will.

But don’t care for them,
and spread your charade to we.
But I see behind the curtains,
And I’m only sixteen.

I’m only sixteen,
and I see what you do.
I’m behind the acts,
I’m standing beside you.

I’m screaming in your ears,
“Oh, don’t you see?!
The mess you’ve made?”
And I’m only sixteen.

I’m only sixteen,
I manage a life.
I have two jobs,
I am not a wife.

But I am sixteen,
and for a while back there.
I saw your kids more,
and gave them more care.

I am only sixteen,
I will be seventeen soon.
But I’m not stupid,
and I see what you do.

I really want to know,
the other half of me.
The side of which unknown,
who I'm meant to be.

The man you left before,
over 16 years ago.
The man that I wish,
to truely come to know.

There is a side of me,
I do not know.
It's dark and cloudy,
made 16 years ago.

Without this other man,
I will never come to know.
The other side of me,
that can not ever show.

My brown eyes and hair,
I know I got from you.
But my body and my nose,
look nothing like yours do.

Attributes about me,
some do not make sense.
Why is he not here?
who put up that fence?

I only wish to find out,
who brought me to the world.
The man who helped create,
this beautiful little girl.

I'm not so little now,
I'm about to turn 16.
Can you imagine how he'll feel?
how he's missed out on me?

Does he even know I'm here?
does he know that I exist?
If he did, I wonder,
if my smile he did miss.

I want to know the man,
who made half of me.
Who he was and is,
who I'm meant to be.

Dark as night,
bright as day.
Oh the things,
we throw away.

You know that ****?
thinks he's better than the rest.
Well deep down inside,
he's really just a mess.

There's that girl,
who passes without a try.
There's a girl with two jobs,
just trying to get by.

If only we saw,
if only we knew.
Who these people are,
the hell they go through.

That **** you know,
gets pressured every night.
His friends always ask,
"Hey man, you got a light?"

That girl in school,
who passes without a try.
Well did you know she hurts?
that every night she cries?

And the girl with two jobs,
has no time of her own.
Depressed to the core,
with the scars to show.

When you walk down the sreet,
what do you see.
Smiles upon faces,
masking the pain beneath.

If only we saw,
if only we knew.
Who these people are,
the hell they go through.

Here we are,
new year again.
Sitting at a table,
surrounded by friends.

I'm standing in a group,
listening to them speak.
I feel like if I spoke,
my voice would be only meak.

You and me,
we grew apart.
Him over there,
he broke my heart.

I'm trying to work through,
to keep a smile up.
But it's only for so long,
before your heart's had enough.

I make small talk,
hangout with friends.
But it's not too long,
before my conversation ends.

I'm staring at a window,
from the outside in.
I'm speaking, I'm screaming,
but I can not win.

The window pane white,
the glass so thick.
The sorrow around me,
is making me sick.

I'm tapping on the window,
I'm screaming so loud.
At the top of my lungs,
I'm begining to pound.

The outside looking in,
I see what's going on.
The happiness, smiles,
and things that are wrong.

But enough is enough,
I wanna tear it away.
Let's break down this window,
even if it takes days.

Using others around you,
for your own sick needs.
You have them begging,
upon their knees.

Until they realize,
who you really are.
But no one believes,
and you've left them scarred.

You're nothing but pathetic,
and you'll get yours I'm sure.
You're nothing but a loser,
who torments innocent girls.

Who makes them fall hard,
and you get scared and flee.
And yourself look awesome,
smelling like roses while she.

She's left pining for you,
to come back to her.
You claim you care,
then go back on your word.

You spread lies and rumours,
and people believe.
The lie you're spinning,
the ways you deceive.

You get a girl to fight your war,
when you're a perfectly capable man.
And then you scurry off,
to hold the new girls hand.

You're a loser, you're pathetic,
and you'll get yours some day.
You're get hurt and then you'll see,
what you do every day.

Going through pictures,
the moments, the laughs.
Going through memories,
when I sat on your lap.

I captured a moment,
who we were back then.
Wasn't long ago,
but I remember when.

The exact moment in time,
when my finger hit the button.
Who we were then,
it seems to be forgotten.

I'm tired of moving on,
I just want to stay still.
Be me, as I am, forever,
I'm wishing with all my will.

I don't wanna grow up,
don't wanna lose this.
Who we all used to be,
it's something I truely miss.

Back then, back when,
we were loving and laughing.
University was far away,
life seemed like a simple thing.

But now, I'm struggling,
school, social life, work and sleep.
Seems we can only ever have,
one, two, maybe three.

And as we grow up , get older,
things are constantly at change.
People grow up,
and sometimes feelings fade.

I hate change,
and I only wish it would stop.
But it doesn't matter,
what I wish, what I want.

Because life is going to keep moving,
and I just have to hold on.
Look at this picture and memory,
and accept that it's gone.

The cancer spreads,
it will not stop.
The treatments won't work,
after all you've fought...

But don't give in,
I need you here.
God can't take you,
it's all that I fear.

Alone I cry,
over all this stress.
Lately my life,
is just one big mess.

The jerks at school,
the exams I cram.
But what's the use,
when I'm alone again.

My thoughts torture,
my fears ****.
I don't want to cry,
but I do against my will.

I feel so useless,
there's nothing I can do.
I can't make you better,
can't cure you.

I feel selfish,
I know you're suffering again.
But I promise you,
I'll be with you till the end.

I'll make the best,
of every moment I have
And I'll treat every minute,
like it is our last.

'Cause if I've learned anything,
it's like can change.
Without any warning,
everything will rearrange.

I love you mime,
you're everything to me.
You've taught me lots,
changed how I see.

So, they say this cancer,
it'll be your death.
But I'll make sure you're happy,
with the time you have left.

And when the end is close,
I'll be very near.
Holding your hand,
with you shedding tears.

I love you,
and I'll always remember.
Your bright blue eyes,
in the stormy weather.

Cause when you're gone,
on rainy days,
I know that it's you,
saying you're there always.

There are things in this life,
that I live for every day.
Things in this life in which,
I lose myself in every way.

Your eyes, your hands,
the way you hold me just so.
They way you kiss my lips,
as I'm wishing you would never go.

The way the clouds in the sky,
looking so fluffy one afternoon.
Then suddenly, they take a turn,
and there's no sight of even the moon.

The way the music flows,
softly in my ears.
As I sit and listen with you,
and it drowns out my fears.

You, you're beautiful to me,
and if only you could see.
How strong you really are,
how amazing you can be.

You give me butterflies,
and it's truely amazing now.
How the world can be collapsing beneath,
but you're with me anyhow.

We're so afraid of change, and yet,
it's so prominent in our lives.
Things fall apart, things fall together,
things left like destructed coal mines.

Life can fall apart,
and our world can be in ruins.
But this is the road to transformation,
let us let it begin.

Words ...
               Subtly...
                             Speak ...

I just want to Scream

Listen ...
                        Understand ...
                                       Silence ...

Would you ever Hear me?

Unaudiable ...
                    Reaching ...
                                    Silence ...

*But She Wants To Scream ...

There is a point,
when we must let go.
I've tried my best,
to let you know.

I've done what I could,
I was honest when asked.
I hope your future,
is unlike my past.

I hope you help,
him heal to the full.
I hope when he pushes,
that you'll always pull.

That you won't give up,
like we did before.
You won't end up like me,
regretably torn.

I know you understand,
you're honest with me.
You know there's a lot,
I have yet to tell he.

It will come in time,
with friendship I hope.
But telling him now,
will not help me cope.

You understand when,
I told you all I thought.
Everything you asked,
as my cheeks turned hot.

My hands would shake,
the lump in my throat.
It would be harder with him,
I want to let him know ...

But sometimes things,
they just need time.
So I sit here in silence,
with thoughts that are  mine..

It was almost a year,
September 11 2009.
At this time last year,
honey you were mine.

My mind's going back,
thinking thoughts of then.
The talks we had,
things we used to do when.

We were together,
but this time this year.
You're with her,
and I'm alone here.

Insignificantly enough,
we both have significant others.
We've both fallen again,
we both have separate lovers.

But I miss my bestie,
my one true friend.
The one who said,
he'd be there till the end.

I miss just talking,
with you about it all.
I miss having you catch me,
every time I'd fall.

This time last year,
it was all that could have been.
September 11 2009,
but now it's 2010.

So much has changed,
us, me and you.
Nothing more is said,
nothing more to do.

Just to reminise,
to remember it all.
Silently crying,
here I am, I fall ...

I wonder what to do,
I sit here silently wait.
My head is filled with anger,
my heart is filled with hate.

I'm ridiculed constantly,
told it's not the truth.
How ever would you know?
I am me, you are you.

What reason do I have,
to feed you many lies.
This is all the truth,
a reality that is mine.

I'm tired of trying,
to tell the truth and then.
Being told it's wrong,
called a liar again.

Or telling someone something,
and being promised they won't.
Tell anyone else,
but somehow it gets out?

Let's play truth or dare,
or many just dare now.
Because no one tells the truth,
and we're all alone somehow.

No one can be trusted,
secrets always get out.
I sit here in silence,
but once I tried to shout...

Your touch,
sends chills,
racing through,
my entire body.

Your smile,
sends jolts,
of electricity,
through my heart.

The words you say,
make my heart skip,
the way you talk,
makes my head summersault.

The worse part,
of this whole thing,
is I can't tell you,
and you don't even know...