i wanted to believe you
with all my heart
i wanted it to be true
when you said there was no one else
but a part of me always knew
there was always someone else
standing between me and you

it’s so hard to let go of someone
when you know how easily
you could reach out to them
they’re only one call away
and yet you’re doing everything you can
to make sure you don’t end up
looking through your contacts
trying to find their name
and you tried to block them
but who were you kidding?
when you know their number by heart
now it feels like you’re worlds apart
and there’s nothing else you can do
but to try and let them go

the best part of you
knowing me the most
is that you always know
what to say to me
you know how to make me smile
when i feel blue
you know it makes me happy
just to sit next to you
but the worst part about you
knowing me the most
is that you also know exactly
how to hurt me the most

do you wanna know
the beautiful thing about love?
is that you can give it
to anybody you choose to
but do you wanna know
the worst thing about love?
is that I would rip my heart out in two
right in front of you
if you asked me to

i knew you knew
when i looked at you
i knew that you saw it in me
you weren’t supposed to
yet you did
you saw how broken i was

i needed you to hold me
i didn’t want to let you go
but you just looked at me
you didn’t even wave goodbye
you didn’t see the tears in my eyes
i wanted so badly to look into your eyes
but i didn’t want you to see me cry

you made me feel stupid
not once not twice not thrice
you made me feel stupid with every single lie
because of you
i trust no one
even the ones who try
they want to get through me
but i can’t let them
i will not let them see
the darkness built inside of me

i wonder if you knew from the beginning
that you weren’t here to stay
i gave you everything
yet you ran away
was i not enough
was someone else making you laugh
so you left me
and now the only time i see you
is in the photographs

I’ve never said
the three words to you before
but I’ve shown you
in many different ways
every kiss and every touch
they all mean just as much
I know you don’t feel the same
but it doesn’t ease the pain

sometimes I feel like an ice
under the rain
I melt
every time I realize
how much I care for you
knowing that you don’t care as much for me
and I wish I could just let it be
but there will always be a part of me —
that wishes you loved me

they say they’re just words
but forgive me
that i would rather get stabbed with a knife
than hear the words, “you’re just not enough”
from the woman
who i thought would someday be my wife