First time i had a real dream in a while....and i die...
I'm genuinely happy for the first time in years and someone kills me on sight as if i were a threat against their society...
I'm just finally at the peak of my livelihood...and some one shoots me down cold blood...
I guess this teaches you not to get too comfortable...
I was fine...i felt amazing...the cuts i once had as open wounds on my heart nearly closed until that moment...that i died..
The bullet ever so closely grazed my soul and gave a laugh...as my conscious mind drifted off..
The 5 seconds left of brain activity i had...flashed the one person i could never ignore if i tried...and i was whisked away to ...the gate...where i was to choose..to roam and end up talking to zac bagans...or cross the bridge where i didnt know what was waiting....
God
Purgatory
Or Satan

First time i had a real dream in a while....and i die...
I'm genuinely happy for the first time in years and someone kills me on sight as if i were a threat against their society...
I'm just finally at the peak of my livelihood...and some one shoots me down cold blood...
I guess this teaches you not to get too comfortable...
I was fine...i felt amazing...the cuts i once had as open wounds on my heart nearly closed until that moment...that i died..
The bullet ever so closely grazed my soul and gave a laugh...as my conscious mind drifted off..
The 5 seconds left of brain activity i had...flashed the one person i could never ignore if i tried...and i was whisked away to ...the gate...where i was to choose..to roam and end up talking to zac bagans...or cross the bridge where i didnt know what was waiting....
God
Purgatory
Or Satan

All I wanted was someone to love me
All I wanted was someone to love.
All I wanted was to love them more than anyone else and supply them with love.
All I wanted
All I wanted was to love you
All I wanted was to show you how much you meant to me

All I wanted...was for you to deal with me...even if it got hard...
All I wanted was someone who would hold my heart

All thats left is stitching....from the heart that you took..and the person you left cold.

All I wanted was for you to love me...
All I wanted was for you to....
All I wanted was to love you.

Backstage
Bodies in costumes
Act 1 scene 3
I see the Shakespeare in me
Act 2 scene 7
The best of them all
This is where the young actress begins to wow them all
She sings
She dances
She acts with her heart
She continues until the end of her part...
Act 3 scene 1
He begins to dance the stage
Allowing his words to speak milifluously
Act 4 scene 6
Macbeth and blood shed
Act 7 scene 7
Back stage there they are ....increased sincerity....and pools of blood...small endings to tie up the loose ends
Act 7 scene 8
The lights dim..
The once pristine voice of the woman isnt heard again...all you shall hear is him and her loving in the distance

It's sad how much one person can mean to you...its sad how when they leave you still find it impossible to think irrationally of them anymore...um...its kinda a shame...how crying never makes it better...but its the first thing our bodies resort to when you miss them..when you cant think of anyone else..when they are honestly the only one on your mind...and when you know they've moved on from you...

Why'd...you make me happy then leave?
Why'd...you show me that you cared then leave?
Why did you leave my bed?
Why is it so cold now?

Mm to devour... to conquer... to take... to encase... to engage...
  All I want from him and need from him is clear...
  I want to love him and take in his love
I want to devour him and take in his bodies secrets
I want to conquer his desire and shape it to mine
I want to encase myself in his feel and take it all in
I want to indulge in his type of language that only speaks to me
   I want him...
I want him connecting with me..
I want him loving and devouring me..consistantly

The war is in my mind but the wounds are on my body..
The wounded girl you never knew was emo..

The cutting means something..
Remember kids down the street not across the road...
And when it finally gets that far..and i make it count...

When i finally show you its not me saying I'm okay, we both know I lied

Im fine, Im a complete failure
Im not hungry,Im just starving myself
Im not sad,Im dying inside

Im crying, im holding my breath
I wanna die, save me

Im lost inside myself, go away...i know its complicated but i really need you to stay..

Dont say anything...just hug me
Squeeze me.
Believe in me.

Our winter wind blows..
Blows heavy
Flows deep
Flows and blows...bellows...
Me and you travel...you and i meet
Meet at where our fall seems to be beat...into...winter..
Our snowy peaks...and our mittens
That keep us from the frost bitten...
Leaves and flowers underneath
To the steady roots and fallen branches of trees
Our atmosphere...that pours white
Our new layer of snow...
That's lying there ready to melt...and ready to go...
With our new ending breeze...of spring...from a cold begging March...to a timid sunny april...our love had just been realized...
Our winters made us stay together...and feel like we were wanted...our autumns made us laugh...our summers made us dance and....our last made us fall...until our winter soon came again to renew the cycle and start it all..
Over it begins..
To start a new..
Our seasons....but then one by one i start to spend them with out you...
I don't know where we ended...or for that matter where we began...i just know you were my fireplace...
You lasted long during our winters and faded our summers...but you always came back...now i never see you...I'm wiser to know where you're at.. Not here..not there...not anywhere but my mind....my fire place....can you promise me you'll wait and warm me when it's time....i just wish our...winter came faster..

Just another lonely soul
Walking a path of shame
The path of finding
Me...the girl separated and then reunited with pain
Not restricting myself to what is, but allowing myself to let go of what was...
Just another lonely soul

The rain dont fall as soft as it used to...
The rain just won't stop...
The rain is....gone...
The rain is on...

It rained on me yesterday
In my my mind
My thoughts were clouded...my thoughts were locked away
And then out came something..
That pierced me and...made a strain so big
I couldn't forget...
I couldnt love to forget you
I couldnt...be...
I couldnt keep up...with you...and me
Something pierced my heart...something...tore away the pieces you mended back together from the start..
You took away my heart
You ate at my love
You told me differently
You told me
It was nothing you could do...
You said....it was done...you told me move on