I'm twisting my neck chaotically,
Trying to come to terms with myself.
My words are no less blank
As yesterday's were.
A fragile part of me is seeping out
And trying to tell me something,
But I don't know what.
I'm still ignoring important things,
Wondering if death really isn't
All that important to me anymore.
What I found to be a casual breeze,
A use of the head over the heart,
Is turning into a confusing mess.

They're here for me, but I don't see it.
They care--something I don't realize.
Keep it together, keep it together...
Leave for the better, you idiot.
If I use truth instead of bitter lies,
Will I feel better about myself?
Trial and error is nothing more than
A way for me to make the same mistakes
And not feel guilty about them.

Where's my instrumental?
My backing track?
Do I have steady rhythm
Or even a relevant melody?
Keep your tired eyes peeled;
You will hear your song eventually.

What a curse it is
To love someone so much
That you write a poem about them
One day
Only to not be a thing
The day after

I wake you up
Out of your slumber
I hear the 8 become 9
I've always said that 24 hours
Is too short, and for us
It makes your company more of a necessity
Because there is no tomorrow
If I haven't had you yet, my drug, my fix
Babe, you don't know what it's like
To lay in bed and imagine your skin
Sending shivers up mine
We suffer on the weekdays
Then the weekend is here and I'm yours
You're my favorite
I don't want to hear it ever again
I'm not gonna give up on a boy
That is the light in my life
I'll run to you in the blink of an eye
That is the power of the love
That I have for you

How did things change so quick?
I'm left at home
Without a call or a click
Of a button, how unfortunate
How have I loved this hard
Only to be abandoned
I'm left with no answers
Each night, you burn holes
Into a man who did nothing
But love and stand by you
Was there for you,
Willing to give you some space
Why do I have to suffer?
You don't deserve me, indeed
And maybe I deserve better

You strengthen my livelihood, make me shine
It's your smile, all I see in time
I'm paragliding into your heart
From your soul, every hug, every caress
My body burns with love and passion
The feeling lasts all through the day
I used to love only for my benefit
Now I love for two, crave for one
Baby, you've been the love of my life
Never really stopped
From the curl of every strand
To the peculiarity of your lovely body
I love it all, unconditionally
Everything grows in this vessel
I'd let you open every part
Vibrate every string, strike every chord
If you ever so wished to
Drive me happy, drive me mad
As long as you're on the road of love
You are what you are, what I know
And I love no other man
For my beautiful darling is waiting for me
To open up every part of him
Never really stopped

In an instant, we are born
And in an instant, we perish―
A vision of life before our eyes

You live on a canvas,
A blank easel
The need to be alive
Comes to you in your dreams
Like a spirit in flight
A body brought back to life

As much as you pain yourself
The pain is noticeable
But you get back up again
The strongest ones do.

You never felt right for me

In just a year I've found **** luck
Hypothesizing a love life
With the conclusion of
A beautiful future,
Two souls intermingling

No, I don't understand the concept
My youth screamed like a spoiled child
That it was right when everyone said
It wasn't
I listened, I listened then crashed

You told me one day love wasn't for you
My throat clenched and choked
My page of trust was ripped out
My heart poured out on a hospital sheet
Was drilled into, wasn't serious to you
And yes, I underrated my heartache
To not look like a loser for love
A part of me wanted a future with you
Wanted to say that I proved them wrong
Had something to be proud of

Not broken, yet not held together
I refuse to be, because I've
Been there far too many times
You make me sit at the table
Waiting for the clock to change
I look for a call, a declaration of love
But instead, you hurt me
And anytime I think about you
I am disgusted with myself