at this moment in time,
i can't tell if being heartbroken
would numb me or
**** me
?

-a.lorraine

the feeling of peace and calmness
seems to come at an unavoidable price
like killing brain cells or losing an arbitrary piece of your memory like the
details to a scene in a good film or the exact measurement of cream in a recipe, but then you question why these things would matter on a deeper level than common small talk between occasional acquaintances who may never care to bring it up again. So you just continue to inhale that good ****.

-a.lorraine

she deserves a better version of you
not this diversion of you.
take her on an excursion with you
show her the conversion of you.

-a. lorraine

write for yourself
meaning
if you write for anyone but-
you will eventually
forget what your own voice
sounds like.

- a.lorraine

people will come and go in your life
like you’re a ******* grocery store.

you have many good things to offer.
they may take from you.
they may give to you.
they may simply move on
if you don’t have what they want.
you’ll be there when it’s convenient.
you’ll close when you feel like it.
but for the most part
you’re always open.
they might have not been around,
but you’ll be in the exact same place
they left you.

- a. lorraine

dear girl,

you don’t know it now,
you won’t believe it now,
but here’s the truth.

one day not long from today,
you will be loved by someone
who accepts you even on your
most unapproachable days.
and believe me, you will have plenty.

you might do everything
in your power to combat this
kind of unexpected life you’ll live.
you believe you do not deserve him,
but you’ll give up fighting.
like i said, he’ll love you on even
your most unapproachable days.
unconditional and deservingly.

sincerely,
an older you who’s still learning