i looked at the blood flowing from my body, i see that i'm no good, i see trails for tears dripping from peoples faces when they see my soulless body lay there just being still, they wept over my motionless body, asking and scream why did i leave, maybe its because i wasn't happy, my only moment of happiness is when he was there next to me, my mama told me you don't need a man to be happy, and shes right, but when that man took everything you had left in you, it felt like there was nothing left, my days got longer, my nights got harder, my smile faded, my laugh didn't exist anymore the little pride, the little happiness i had was now going, and no i'm dead, so please stop crying over my selfless body, be happy now you can live free

I realize that now your gone.....
Your never coming back
Your happy now
I'm sorry
I'm disappointment

I remember the way it felt when the cold metal slid across my wrist,
The way the blood flowed down my arms,
The way the pain was slowly going away,
I needed you,
And you told me to go away......

I  hate  you = I love you

You told me you were never leaving,
Now look you left,
The moment when i need you the most,
The moment that kills me the most,
I turn around and see you know where to be found,
You told me that you would never leave,
What a lie you could create,

I told you that I  loved  you and you left so I guess that's what I get,

i wonder what my parents would say if they found out i cry  each  *day

i had this dream where everything was falling apart around me, like all my friends hated me, my family disowned me, i lost myself, i woke up in tears realizing that dream is slowly coming true.....

today would have been 8 months that we have been together
i miss "us"
the other day you texted me and said you missed me?
do you really?
you hurt me, you broke my heart
but it was already broken when i met you
i thought you would be the one to fix it
but you broke it more
why?

i......miss you..........im sorry

The sadness over takes the body and its hard to stop,
the sadness hurts so bad,
and  taking the blade to your skin and making yourself bleed
just to make the pain go away,
but wait the pain is still there
the pain you left me with the hurt that will never go away,
I gave you my heart and you gave me a knife,  
you took my heart and through it on the floor like it was trash
I could have gave my heart to someone that really cared,
the blood is dripping on the floor
slowly and you start to count
one cut two cuts three cuts
and you keep counting  up
and all you can  remember is the pain
that was left,
and all you do is cry……..

when i look at myself i feel......
fat
worthless
ugly
a  nobody
unneeded
stupid
i feel like i have no  reason  to  be  *here

one day i want her to feel the pain i felt inside
one day i want her to feel what its like to take a blade across her skin
one day i want her to feel what its like to be heart broken
one day i want her to feel like she worthless
one day i want her to feel the same way i felt when she broke my heart
one day i want her to feel all alone
one day i want her to feel whats its like to get laughed at
one day.......one day i want her to feel the sadness i felt inside

when i look at her, i feel worthless
i wanna cry
i feel like im nothing
i feel empty
i feel nothing inside
i feel lost
but when i look away
i break into more pieces
i cry
i go home and all i do is cry
then paint and beautiful pictures all over my body
seeing her kills me
i cant take it anymore
i just want to stop breathing and make all this pain go away

most people think the worst thing in life is to end up all alone
but it isnt.......
the worse thing in life is to end up surrounded by people who make you feel all alone

your like the tide
your beautiful
and hard to resist
but the minute i
come running to you
you pull away

why does it hurt every time i see her
why does it hurt when i hear her voice
why does it when i hear her name
why does it hurt every time she smiles at me
why does it hurt when she looks at me
why does it hurt when she turns around and walks away
why does it hurt!!!!!

i wanted to tell her i never loved her
but i did and still do
i wanted to tell her she was noting to me
but she is everything to me
i wanted to tell her that i dont think about her
but thats a lie she is all i think about
no one wants us together
they say she brings me sadness and unhappiness
but they dont see she is my everything my heart and soul, my other half, everything i ever wanted,

i feel like the world is on my shoulders
i cant take this
i never felt this way before
everything is falling apart
i'm losing all my friends
my own family hates me
i cant take this
i hate this
i hate not being able to see her
i hate being sad
but everything i do ruins everything
i cant take it

life with her is
amazing
loving
amusing
awesome
warming
wonderful

life without her
sad
angry
depressing
terrible

when you just want to say im done,
but there is that one person begging for you to stay  
so you think about how happy that person will be without you in there life
but they dont see that
all you can do at this time is cry
your make up is running down your face
you cant take it anymore
you love that person the death and back but you cant take the pain
it hurts so bad
your write her a goodbye letter telling her how much you love you
then all you hear is the phone ring ring ring you answer it
its her shes crying telling you how much she needs you, how much you mean to her, how much she loves you, she is begging you not to leave her
your crying even harder
she made you promise not to leave her
and you said "i promise as long as you become mine

hearing her voice
makes my day
makes me smile
makes me get butterflies
makes me miss her even more
makes me want to cry
makes me love her even more

the moment when she hangs up the phone
and all you hear is  static
you  start crying
because you waited all day to hear her voice
and now shes gone
you miss her so much.....</3...