I used to ponder on the past,
but now I live like a free woman.

I used to be trapped in an imaginary cage,
but now I’m discovering the world that has lived before me.

I use to be afraid of changing,
but now I’m afraid of staying the same.

I used to be problematic at best,
but now I’m ambitious at worst.

I used to look at poems as a waste of talent,
but now I see them as a work of art.

I used to try hard to be like others,
but now I am myself.

I love you.
Yes what you’re reading is true.
But we don’t connect the way we use to.
When your hand softly brushes my palm,
it doesn’t feel like a magnetic force that must stay together.
Our hands no longer connect like a 500 piece  puzzle,
where you need every piece for it to work.
I think you lost a piece.
I think I’m losing you,
This
Sure
Won’t
Be
Easy.
When I glance at you across the room,
I get this quick urge to look away.
I can’t see you the way I want to.
Our love is as clear as a persons vision who goes blind.
We lost all of our love darling.
And I’m sure this won’t be easy to comprehend.

I remember the day like it was yesterday
you lied to me
you swore that you would be back
and I believed you.
10 years later
and I still am waiting for your presence
I don't want to breath in your absence that’s been left
because I know it would **** me.
but ****,
where are you dad?
and why have you been gone for so long.
10 years from now
You will still be my favorite mystery.
At 24, I’ll finally realize
I’ve been looking forward to a dissapointment.

We have nothing close to an ordinary love, my dear.
An motorcyclist and a ballerina appear in mind,  
But that’s not even that clear.
Our bond is better than anything I can dream of.
a chemical bond between two atoms,
we are extraordinary.
But you still have that “typical boy” in you.
You bug me like a tick in the ear,
I love the pain you cause me.
But you still have that “manly strength” in you.
Protecting me like a hand lays protected by a boxing glove,
our love is something that is unspoken.

I've done it again
the monsters in my brain
take over everything
its the 4th time this month
I've tried to **** myself
how I am alive?
why do I keep having to suffer?
When does life get easier
or does it not get easier
I'm so sorry
I'm really sad

my mind is a nomad
except, my mind has found a resting place
I can't really devote to one thing

but when I think of you
it's different because,
I truly know that I only want you

you are the sparkle in the sky
you are the beauty in the sunsets
you are my favorite sunrise
I want you to be mine