Your words break me, shake me
But this is the way it had to be
I had to finally set you free
Baby I love you, can't you see
All the things I can't do for thee
A beautiful soul but you tread so hesitantly
For this world is not made of pleasantries
And my heart never came perfectly
It is a survivor of puppetry
Broken from insanity
Programed like a computer to flee
Victem to my faulty circuitry
Why do you insist to have this blasphemy
Is it really worth those small moments of glee
I'm sorry but I do not agree
You deserve so much more than this decree
And you heart might be left thirsty
But it is me who must carry on as an amputee
For you were like a leg that supported me
And I was a tumor that burdened thee
So now maybe you can live healthy
And awaken to a better reality

Peel away my layers
Until all that's left is me
But never forget
That this isn't all I can be

They win
There was nothing I could do
They did it
They ripped me away from you
They proved it
We were never ment to be
They knew
You wouldn't always love me
They smiled
As you slowly drifted away
They chuckled
For I could do nothing to make you stay
They cheered
When they realized what they'd done
They fired
As I turned to run
They beat me
Until the snow was red
They burnd me
Until I was shurly dead
They held
My body as it lay broken
The forced
My eyes upon one last token
You grinned
As my body began to die
I cried
"They" were just your lie

But the little things you do
Make me love you
More and more each day
So forgive me if I say
That I might never
Find another lover
Who makes me smile
A smile that's worth while
Because all my heart
Though it's not smart
Is filled with you
And the little things you do

You know what I want?
I want you back in my bed
Back in my arms
Skin to skin
Your calm breath
And strong arms
Letting me fall asleep
Chasing all my fears away

I've never slept better then in your arms

A soul made of blasfemy
   Tattered by the world around it
Lumbering down the wrong path
   Of which it had no choice to go
Haunted by the ones that once loved it dearest
   Degraded further by the ones that never did
Broken and withered to the point of death
   Oh, this was the face of woe

All I want is for you to hold me
To tell me you love me
But I know you won't
So instead
I push you away
I want you to come back
Because you say you want to
But you stand your ground
As I close the gates
I want you to want me
I want this pain to go away
I want to explain how dead I am inside
I want you to really hear me
As I'm begging silently
Behind my anger and frustration

But all I do is make this worse

So instead

I just say "I'm okay"
And hope that at least you
Are having a good day

You are worth so much
More then you could ever know
Just let me show you

One day you will not love me
The way you loved me
Once apon a yesterday

One day you will love her
And I will crumble
As my heart with you will stay

One day you will look back
And our love will be
But a sweet, memory

And that one day is the day
That my love for you
Will bloom into misery

Trying to force these words
Down onto this paper
Trying to explain how I feel
It's like a special kind of torture
That I must push through
To remind myself I'm real

When he says "I love you"
I know it's a lie
When he say's "you're beautiful"
I just want to cry
But when I feel his touch
I could never deny
I love the way he feels

Counting syllables
Is much harder then it seems
To keep it simple

I'm not crazy
I'm insain
I am human
I'm deranged

You say I'm crazy
Then you are to
Look in the mirror
I'm just like you

We're not crazy
Not you not me
We're just human
Can't you see

So come and join me
In the sun
Because we're not crazy
We're like everyone

If it is what you ask
I will always smile for you
Even when my tears crash down
It's the one thing I will always do

I will always smile
For I know it is what you want to see
Even when I'm broken inside
You'd rather see a happy me

I will always smile
As long as it makes you smile to
Because my smile would be pointless
If I wasn't smiling for you

Body crumbling
My heart bleeding in my hand
I fall before you

Dark is the absence of light
It absorbs light
That is this feeling
Draining all that is good
It absorbs my common sense
So that all is left is irrational fear
Panic
The more you resist
The bigger it gets
" stay calm"
Is a useless defense
Breathing
Just leads to hyperventilation
Not breathing?
Not really an option
All that's left
Is sit down
And shut the **** up
wait for it to pass
Plus, patience
Witch, you know
Ha

No, don't make me go
Many terrors are waiting
To goble me whole

"We are meant to be"
Doesn't change anything
We are not to be

I should of never woken up
That breath should of been my last
And now two years have past

Why does everything still hurt?

Swollow your medicine
Be a good girl now
Taste a little bitter
But I can't afford the sugar
To help it go down

He holds on to me
Like a child
Instantly I am floating
Like an ocean
His need for me
Is the curent
Pulling me peafuly
Out to sea
Bubbly sea foam
Surounds my heart
Floating my troubles away
All the concerns me now
Is that he is sleeping sound

Falling down this whole
With only you're hand to hold
I watch us unfold

Are you lying?
Because she says you are
She says
That everybody knew
That I just like
Getting lied to
He says
Stay the **** away
What a great way
To end our last day
You say. . .
You say nothing
You leave me here
Not knowing what is real
You were real
But now I don't know
Where did you go. . . .
How long has this night mare
Been weaving it's way to my heart?
Just like all the rest
This one just as ****
Real or not real?
Why does it matter now?
One foot away
From six feet in the ground

What did they say to you
That's made you so scared


That I'm no longer worth fighting for

one day a giant stepped on a flower
it wasn't big flower
for it was still growing
a sprout not to long ago
but it had just began to bud
ready to say hello to the sun
and ***** you to the world
because it had beaten the odd's
many had tried to grow here
and all had failed
lang long before they even grew pods
but this flower was different
a beautiful color
peaked out of it's bulb
and it's fragrance
already lighted everybody's  day
but this flower did not know
in witch garden it did grow
for giants don't like flowers
no matter how pretty and sweet

You said time
Not space
But aren't they the same?
At least in this case. . .

Childhood lost
Heart turned to frost
And what was the cost
Of this childhood lost

alone in my mind
the world can be left behind
but night mares follow

Thinking about it
It almost means anything
Just change the title

I'm sorry to bother you
I didn't mean to knock so loudly
I'm looking for something very dear to me
I'll gladly offer a bounty

no I don't know what it looks like
and it doesn't have a name for you to call
no you may not keep it
if you even find it at all

I don't know if it ever existed
or if I made it up myself
But please do inform me one day
If you find it on a shelf

Don't be alarmed if you find it under a bed
I promise it can't hurt you
But you should keep it from children
You never know what they might do

Now I'm sorry I have to go
There are many others to inform
I understand that for someone like you
This might be out of the norm

But just for me please look around
It won't take much concentration
I just really need some help
Finding my crazy imagination

A week ago
We were sitting in the cold
But I was warm
In your arms
today I sit in the heat
Shivering

My life was just ripped away
And you think you understand
You've murdered me, internationally
And you think you're still my friend
I feel like I've lost a part of me
And you expect me to be nice
To lay down, to not fight
Say things to hurt me
Then get mad when I throw fire back
Thought I would break down
As you put my heart under attack
Side ways compliments
To put salt in my cuts
You say that you loved me
But that was never enough

Be strange
Be loud
Go out in the croud
Don't hide
go play
And at the end of the day
Be happy
Be you
Just always stay true

I sit silent
As my pain sits quiet
In the back of my head
The back of my heart
I must make room
In honor of you
Every inch of me
You filled to the brim
Every one of those inches
I'll slowly give to him
Not because I hate you
I am not mad
I will always love you
With every inch
But I'm learning now
That those inches must be shared
For the sake of my sanity
For the sake of yours
I must be prepared
To fall in love again

The words of my soul
Are written in notes
Across five lines
With bars on each side