I don't know what you're  doing
To us , Or to me
I can't  even tell anymore
If this is really how
Things are supposed to be
Mastermind
Of your own demise
But I'm just as stuck as you

What do you expect me to do?
Sit here waiting patently on cue
mind racing, stomach sinking, heart breaking
waiting just for you

20 minutes at a time
with a million thoughts on my mind
but 20 minutes goes by slow
in the dark waiting alone

For someone who probably
has someone else
waiting for them
just like myself

Except they don't wait
they get your time
because unlike them
To make me wait is fine

I am the other now
the one who waits
who patiently sits
who does what ever it takes

just for a second
of your atention
I must sit and wither
through a lofty detention

This a fear
I knew would come true
but never in my dreams
enacted  by you. . . .

One day you will not love me
The way you loved me
Once apon a yesterday

One day you will love her
And I will crumble
As my heart with you will stay

One day you will look back
And our love will be
But a sweet, memory

And that one day is the day
That my love for you
Will bloom into misery

You think I don't know
That you are also in pain
But my dear friend
I am not that insain . . .
It rings like a lie
But I never wanted you to feel
Like pet, a dog
Who needed to heel . . .
I want to hear what you say
But I know what it will do
I'm already crumbling
Alone without you . . .
But that does not mean
That I have spun lies??
I am simply trying to fight
My certain demise . . .
You have hurt me!!!
Straight to the core
But not by going
And trying to find more . . .
You hurt me because you hid
Cept it behind a curtain
Told me pretty words
So now I am uncertain . . .
Because the esance of our love
Was centered around honesty
Something I feel like you broke

That's what burdens me . . .

They win
There was nothing I could do
They did it
They ripped me away from you
They proved it
We were never ment to be
They knew
You wouldn't always love me
They smiled
As you slowly drifted away
They chuckled
For I could do nothing to make you stay
They cheered
When they realized what they'd done
They fired
As I turned to run
They beat me
Until the snow was red
They burnd me
Until I was shurly dead
They held
My body as it lay broken
The forced
My eyes upon one last token
You grinned
As my body began to die
I cried
"They" were just your lie

Split my soul in two
Half for me
and half for you

A soul made of blasfemy
   Tattered by the world around it
Lumbering down the wrong path
   Of which it had no choice to go
Haunted by the ones that once loved it dearest
   Degraded further by the ones that never did
Broken and withered to the point of death
   Oh, this was the face of woe