She was everything I wanted to be
No wonder I questioned my sexuality
But to find she might be into me?
My heart couldn't help but skip a beat

I was set on being her everything
Four years I batted my eyes
And watched as she fell for others
As she let them between her thighs

As young people will do
I fell for others to
But she was always there in my heart
My feelings always true

Lover apon lover
Cracked and broke me down
Slowly I lost myself
Slowly I began to drown

But I still loved them
Just as I loved her
But how could I love both
And for that I was unsure

Finally one day
I got my chance
After so long in denial
She had given me a second glance

I showed her what I could do
And she fell before me
She fell FOR ME
But it wasn't what I hoped it would be

For once in so long
I found that I didn't want her
And finally my life
Wasn't such a blur


Because I wanted him
And only him
I wanted him so much
That my love for her actually grew dim

I realized that day
That it wasn't about what you were
It was about who you were
Yes finally I was sure

So many people
talk about what they like
But I found that I like whos not whats
I'm not straight I'm not "****"

I am who I am
And I'm everything I want to be
And she helped me realize that
She helped me find me

You are worth so much
More then you could ever know
Just let me show you

If it is what you ask
I will always smile for you
Even when my tears crash down
It's the one thing I will always do

I will always smile
For I know it is what you want to see
Even when I'm broken inside
You'd rather see a happy me

I will always smile
As long as it makes you smile to
Because my smile would be pointless
If I wasn't smiling for you

Ravage
My heart, my soul
Steal it
And keep it for your own
Damaged
As it might be
Keep it
Far away and safe from me

Once Upon I, the warrior skeletal
the eternal darkness
descended
with cracked laughter echoing
serendipity exploding
and unfolding  erase(s)
the expanse of nightfall,
those connected before
redemption,
rustic austerity
peace
for she
dreaming forlorn
liberated
by the sword
sine qua non

I DON'T have your patience
And I DON'T have your time
Because unlike YOU
It's MY heart on the line
YOU many sit here waiting
Thinking one day it'll be OKAY
But I don't HAVE that luxury
To wait MY time away
YOU can pretend your happy
If that is what YOU please
But I will NOT lay before them
Weakly apon MY knees
Time IS a powerful weapon
Now THAT I will admit
But WAITING is a painful path
That to myself I will NOT commit
So have your PATIENCE
Yes have your TIME
But I don't have the HEART
To WAIT for you to be mine

The words of my soul
Are written in notes
Across five lines
With bars on each side