i don't know why i try to fight you
there's just so much of you
you're so big
and i'm so small
so i fight
and squirm
and scream
and scratch
you whisper
"shh...
look at me.."
[and nothing has ever sounded so dripping in heat]
and i can't fight you anymore
just sweetly surrender
and let you overpower me
just the way you like
[just the way i like]
command me
and i
will
obey

you fit me so good...
what happens if i lose you?
and if i keep you?

i'm going to put on the same pants you slid off of me
and melt inside a little.
getting ready for work never felt so ****.

i miss falling away from your big sweaty body
exhilarated and hot and tired and messy
tears in my eyes
makeup all over
my face
your pillows
i miss you growling in my ear and holding me close to you
tightly enough to hurt me'
just
how
i like
to be
hurt
...
you make my breath leave my body
in so many beautiful ways

you sigh when you're tired and we're talking on the phone
the same way you sigh when you're behind me
and your huge arms are around my neck
and i have to lie down on the linoleum floor to smoke
so that my knees don't give out

you make me wet
without even
having
to
touch
me

i can feel myself
falling
so crazy
in love
you.
must....
be it for me.
[my heart pounds as i type that.]
i want everything
you are
and i feel like i have always wanted you.
somewhere
in the very core of who i am
i've always wanted you.