i am good enough
i will try to whisper it till i am able to say it out loud
then i will expand and expand untill i don't feel the need to apologize for my existence anymore
i am good enough and i have always been but still i degrade myself everytime and i laugh way too much and i smile way too much so that nobody will notice that i find myself
not enough

not enough to rely on myself, not enough to believe that my truth matters
i find myself not enough
to believe that i matter

today was a good day because even though you cried you survived and that deserves an award -
today was a good day because nothing makes sense but it doesn’t matter
today was a good day because everything ***** but still you smiled
today was a good day because you laughed because everything is beautiful and
today was a good day because nothing is determined and our minds make up lots of things which aren’t true but then again our minds wander
today was a good day because it is nice to say that it was a good day- and even if it was a bad day it doesn’t matter
today was a good day and even though people **** themselves and our country is now involved with killing innocent people in the middle-east, there is still beauty left on this earth;
today was a good day because we, the human race can love
and we cry and we love and we fight and we hate, way too much but we love and loving is forgiving and loving is kissing and laughter
and love is everything
love cures and love understands and you can love yourself so that you’ll never have to experience a loveless day - again. self love is important
today was a good day because no matter how many land mines erupted, good things happened and
today people got married and today a couple decided to split up but to remain friends - which will never work but it will make them both happier
and today a girl decided she would never love again but then again she will fall in love
at this very moment a boy decided he doesn’t want to get married, he wants to love as many people as possible and that is beautiful
today a girl had the guts to tell her best friend that she is in love with her - or has been in love with her, since the day they met
today a woman of old age decided to leave her husband because he kept beating her up
we are taking baby steps and as sarah kay said
‚this world is made out of sugar ; it can crumble so easily, but don’t be afraid to stick out your tongue and taste it’
you are a work of art and i can hear you thinking ‚i’m very normal and i am not that beautiful’ but believe me once you start thinking of yourself as beautiful from the inside and the outside
life will be so much better

when we kissed i couldnt help but thinking
how we would lay in eachothers arms till we would be asleep and i imagined me, telling everything about my past exposing myself
and i didn't realize that you too, as being a human being,
had the ability to leave

and you did
just like my best friends did after i ran away from home
it was painful and i couldn't comprehend why
had i done something wrong?
i was certainly not enough, for otherways you'd have stayed
my best friends didn't stay and you followed their lead

now, months later i still dream about you
i obligate myself to distract my mind so that it will not wander to you but,
to be honest every night you enter my mind and it feels like i'm cheating
but it feels as such a relieve to think of you that once i start i cannot stop and than all of a sudden- it is two am and i become ******* sad because you don't even bother to say hi to me when you see mee