I was the beast
Created by men
Equipped with a dark heart
I shut myself from affection
And my face.....
Only showed anger
For I carried
The seed of hatred
Slaying someone's heart
Came easy to me
For I was holding
The blade of vengeance
But now.....
I'm trapped
In this strange prism
I see the colors of rainbow
And my heart beats
Faster than before
Warm embrace from behind
Melt the frozen heart I own
Darkened sky has lifted
And I see
The glow of the sun
No more numbness
As I feel sensation
Within his touch
No more bitterness
For I taste the sweetness
Within his kisses
He's the monster hunter
And he caught me good
He tamed my wild character
With his love spell
And now I'm his prisoner
Willingly to be caged
Inside his ribs
Because he's my magic

-Jess

Swing high, swing low
To the different birds I say hello
Then monsters come to devour the pretties
They grin and show me teeth full of flitties
Swing high, swing low
A demon pushes me onto a spiky pillow
Then cotton candy softens the blow
and turns to blood
Swing high, swing low
I really do not know
Why the female body causes so much distress
When the moon decides that it's time to fertilize
Swing high, swing low
There are no seeds to sow, so
please, hormones, just leave me alone.

I can't decide
what I am anymore
Happy? Sad?
Drifting
in the middle
My nose is above the surface
while my mouth keeps swallowing the waves
So that I'm almost drowning
Almost breathing.

You're tearing me into pieces
in an attempt to save yourself
I hate it, I hate it
Just stop, please, stop
I see that you're happy
I get it, okay
Just stop, please stop
I can't bear this pain.*

And I love you still,
I love you still,
I love you always and I love you still,
but you're destroying me now that you're gone.

So here it comes again, I guess
This unfortunate space
Where happy isn't really happy
And sad is not enough
Here comes the moment when I want to bleed
But to bleed is to betray
And I cannot betray you, love
Even though you chose not to stay
But I'm drowning as you laugh with her
I'm crying as you sing your love
I've hidden what I truly feel,
but eventually this mask won't be enough
to hold in the broken pieces
This glass heart that I thought you fixed
You've tossed it against the ground
and left it for someone else to fix
You're an *******, you know
A total man-*****
Anger is a stage of grief
So get ready for the storm
Suddenly I just can't figure out
why I torture myself with you
When you twist me up and turn me upside down
You confuse me, very much

I just don't know what's happening anymore
My heart is completely torn
Little bits of red are clogging up my veins
They're trapped in my lungs -
no wonder it's so hard to breathe
You fixed me only to destroy me
And then to try to fix me again
**Make up your mind, ******
I'm not a pull-apart Barbie doll!

Sometimes I wish I could forget how to breathe
and just sink.
Would you still come after me?