Dont think things have to die.
Nothing has to die
See
I didnt want the relationship to die.
But it did.
And it didnt have to.
But you wanted to control my life
Every minute of it.
You needed to see who i talked to
Who i didnt
And you had to make sure you were it
Even though ive told you a thousand times that i am a loyal man that is yours forever.
Yet it wasnt enough.
Because you still tried
To hold my life
Like it was a ball
And eventually
You dropped it.
I admit
It was my fault i wasnt brave enough to end it earlier
So it ate at me
I became angry.
I was grumpy.
That ****** you off
So i ended us
The relationship died.
But if only you had honored my wish
Like i did yours
We could still be
Us

Tell me what to say
*my mouth is no longer mine

In time

*we shall survive

I ******* my friend out.
He got into my face
Hit me with his notebook of sorrows.
I told him my mind.
I gave him
What all of his decisions lead to.
He deserved it...
but why do I feel so guilty?
He is a junior in high school,
I am only but a freshman,
And yet,
I hold such power,
his fear
This cannot be understood
He found that I am not scared to speak.
But yet,
I feel like such an ***.
Why am I like this?
Others I know wouldn't give the situation another thought.
So why am i?
Truth is,
I have no clue.
*I'm sorry Jordan

I often contemplate if being normal
*is normal