Do not pause
for it is not in the spirit of love
to be still for so long.
Just as a river
does not stop in its tracks
for fear of overflow.
Just as the sea's are never still.

Just as the sea's are never still.

I’m a stranger walking through a wonder world
colors dripping down my walls
Sudden like hidden koolaid in a showerhead
purposeful like a bath in paint
Watercolors of all my favorite songs
and so many new ones
Today I’m tired and slightly lonely
it’s a dreary day
I’m lighting up with a dizzy rainbow mix
of beats
in the absence of a working tub
I’ll stand up and steam myself to sleep

I’m a lover in a white blazer
Rocking rose pink shades
I’m surrounded by people with ***** hands
and I have no ability to discern the grime of lovers palms
until they’ve brushed over me enough to drown out the cold scars
and I see new stains over my heart

I fell asleep
fighting to untie the fears knotting in my chest
that you felt less sweetness towards me
I tell myself you’re busy
I tell myself you’re sick
I tell myself this happens
and it doesn’t even matter
I am able to put it aside for the night
my head resting on Christ’s hands  
But wake up with a lump in my throat

Is falling into love worth it
when you can't swim
and the water is infested with sharks