Sometimes
I ponder what would happen
If i received the most unbearable news
Would I fall to floor
and wail out my heart?
Would I Shutdown,
Just stare
Would I
be strong?
and only secretly shed tears
What, what would I do,
If I lost you

i remember you leaving
for the first time
how my heart felt shattered on the floor
my sister, my mentor
walking out the door
for the first time completely on her own
When you came back,

I remember running
running to office after hearing my name
and there you were
you were no longer on the other side of the country
you were right there

i hugged you so tight my little arms shaked
the office lady was confused
asked if everything was okay
and we just laughed
we smiled like fools

each time it gets easier
it still aches my heart
but my world no longer falls apart
and when you're home its like you never left

this time when you come I'll hold you tight
we will stay up late talking in the night
laughing, hugging, like we used to